new chapter

In my own world.

2009-08-25T23:02:00.000-07:00

I DECIDED TO CLOSE DOWN THIS BLOG. I NEED A TIME OUT FOR A WHILE.
SORRY GUYS. I HAVE ANOTHER BLOG THAT I JUST SET UP. I WILL TELL YA'LL THE LINK SOON OKAY. TAKE CARE LOVELY PEOPLE.

Definitely worth the wait and patience. HAHAHAH.

2009-08-11T23:32:00.000-07:00

Currently in class, pretending to listen to another group presentation. Science was allright and it was fun working out qns with the rest. Discussing and making our own theory and assumptions. Some are retarded, some was weird. I was annoying today and YES, i was late again. But so what, i wore my lovely cotton on outfit. -.-! Nothing much, Long sleeve, shorts and flips. And haversack, typical poly students. Laptop turnos out to be very heavy nowadays, they cause back pain and backaches. The laptop companies should give a year supply of salonpas or something, LOLS.

Im talking crappy coz i cannot stop smiling about whatever this bacen say to me. Eventhough a bit mushy and the sentence structure a bit retarded, at last you felt what i felt. Im very happy and thankful everything is working out well. Lesser fights and i hope its going somewhere. Imma take it real slow, very slow coz i prefer this way. Why get serious too soon?

Im gg to kill u if u ask me to kenal kenal with ur frens or something, PFFFT.

okay byeee. Its gg to be my turn to present , and i need to buck up for my studies. My gpa is retardedly low and i dont wanna stay back )): ! But on the other hand , i was surprised i got A for cognitive and enterprise for UT, HAHA, i was laughing. Im so happyyyy, im safe i guess. But maths and science decided to be a bitch and be a traitor to give me a D. UHH,FAIL. SIAL UH.I was having high fever when i took this test, teacher should give me chance when marking my test answers, )): !

nvm, im gonna work hard. Communications = C+. BASKETBALL.
It was tough, im pissed enuf. grrr, geram!

bye world. aku syg kauu. ((:

Awesome movie, awesome company.

2009-08-08T09:26:00.000-07:00

APOLOGIES TO KAK SERI FOR NOT ATTENDING UR BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION BUT I WILL GET SOMETHING FOR YOU AND I LOVE YOU OKAYY VERY THE MUCHY. :DDD!

AND I WANT TO DANCE LIKE YOU SOON, I DONT CARE SIAA. HEHEHE! :)

Anyway, G.I JOE was awesomee like hell uhs. The effects is beyond dope, the fights, the machines, the actors. CHANNING TATUM is damn hot! :DD

The company was great. Thank u apian for making me smile like a berok. ((:
Next outing go shopping, teman me buy skate shoes, INSYA. and i will see if i will lend it to you or not, i dont want you to skate with it siaa. I will kill u. ((:

Im happy. But tmrw is gg to be a tiring day, i can forsee blisters on my feet and a sweaty baju kurung, damn it. I will be meeting the cousins tmrw, i bet it will be fun. Cant wait.

LOTS OF LOVE, BEE.

IMISSDYLIESTOTHEFFINMAXANDFRESHFLAVA.((:

Maybe pain makes you a stronger person i guess.

2009-08-06T03:31:00.000-07:00

i DREW THIS IN CLASS JUST NOW, okay bedek. Vincent drew the lion, i just coloured it like a small kid. NOT BAD RIGHT? HAHAHA.

SO much for all that drama, i guess im finally packing up. Not going to paris , haiqal. -__-! You are sick and yet you are very mengarot. HAHHA.

Yup, if he doesnt care for me, he doesnt deserve a second chance right?
Remember this, " i wanted you to be the one i love, i wanted you to hold in my sleep, i wanted you to show me what i mean "

You werent there, you were in your own world. You explain to me but maybe this heart of mine cant take it anymore. I dont have enough patience for you love, how i wish i had so i can undergo another stressful and heartwrenching series but sorry, i cant.

You told me that many guys are chasing after me, but still i said to you, NO, i love you and i dont think its nice for me to do that cause i dont want to hurt you.
You gave me this reply, OKAY.
Fcuk, after all the crap i went thru, you just said okay and a smiley face? PFFT. GUYS? irritating.

And i told you to move on, many chicks are waiting in line just for you. So i can move on without any guilt.
You say, no lah, I tak nak, i malas lahhh. =D
Whats up with the grin?

When i say where is our communication and such? You say dah bagos i tegur, it feels like im not worth it to be tegor-ed issit? fcuk.

Saket hati berbual ngan kau, macam nak bunoh kau pon ader tau. Yest vid call was very awkward, i swear. I wasnt in the mood to laugh and smile like how i use to, cause i dont see the need to. You know its jolly well awkward and you are being so ignorant like nothing is wrong. WAHSEYLIAO, at that rate sape nak layan?

You said people dont deserve you. TEKKKKKKKKKKKK! Wrong answer. You dont deserve people, i told you yest. I have always been there for you, there is never a text from you. Even better, you dont have my no. WHY? You malas nak save my no.
WAHSEYLIAO. Then the part i am somewhere in your heart buat ape? MACAM SIAKK.

Then you start your theory saying that, i malas nak layan, Hp i bill satu bulan 25 dollars, jekk. SAPPP, save. (:

-___-! and you deleted all the contacts that is silent. LOL, like that make me feel any better?
tsktsk, you are wrong boy.

Im moving on. IDK HOW MANY TIMES IM LIKE IN AND OUT OF THIS, but i will walk away. I must walk away, if not, its gonna be another cycle of pain or hell.

TOO WEAK. I DONT HAVE TIME FOR MORE DRAMA. Maybe you belong to someone else. Yes, i surrender, you want me to wait for you like somekind of dog? FUYYY, that one unless you are something amazing, maybe i will think about it. For now, HAHA. No thanks love.

TO zimah, syiqy, sasha and dinah. Its 6.4opm, im here at rp, fcuking alone. Im very pissed, you all are bloody late. And im surrounded with random guys okay, its fucking irritating. I didnt bring my hp to sch, HOW SMART? and im annoyed, very cranky.

Bye world. I miss you hafriz. and dylies.

im very clueless. i swear

2009-08-04T20:25:00.000-07:00

--> School is tiring. Im tired.
--> Dance is retarded, very tiring but i had the best of time with my lovely pillars. They never fail to make me smile.
--> Im a nervous wreck but nanep make me feel damn better. Eventhough i find him a bit crazy, but still he has been nice to me and such.

i got to go right now. now lunch time. bye world.

i miss you hafriz.

can u get like me?

2009-08-02T09:41:00.000-07:00

--> Let the pictures do the talking, i swear im getting fatter and chubbier,tsktsk. HAHA! I had loads of fun today, the weird performance and the mini outing with my beloved pillars.
I get to chat with *kening naek naek* before he head back to camp, HAHAH! STOP IT EH PERANGAI.
Im happy enuf and yes, dearest mommy didnt scold me today, WHEE. i reached home at 8.30pm, first time. JYEAH, im good. ((:

I shall sleep now then, i dont want to be late for school. NIGHTS WORLD.

-> Apian , i hope you are feeling better. I am so sorry that i start quarreling with you and such. I shall call you tmrw then.

bye world.

im happy enuf.

2009-07-30T23:11:00.000-07:00

Hey dear, i’m going to keep it simple for you to understand cause i know no matter how much i will say, its never gonna make any sense if you refuse to calm down, have a peace of mind and learn to deal with it. I’ve read what you’ve sent me and i really think you’re giving up. Don’t do that just yet. Deal with rejection, heal with succession. Ask yourself why you even started dancing. If you have talent and you think you’re not good, tell yourself that you are blessed enough to be given time for others to notice your talent in the near future. Stay strong yeah? Love you. (:

He send me this msg at 1.35am. I feel so touched and yes, thank you hafriz,ily too. ((:

Apian and zimah, thank you very much.You two are always there to bring me up. Thank you for being there for me.

The fight with big bro isnt nice at all, in short, it suck to the core. Lower my self esteem even to the extent i want to quit dancing coz i dont fit to be in it. Very demoralizing, and he is my brother. THANKS BRO, you have been a great bro.

The arguement with him was totally sickening. I won it, i knew i win. Whats the point when i say you are already in your bloody twenties and you dont act as one? And he start saying i may grow old, but i nvr grow up. Then i said, whats the point of u being my brother if your thinking is equivalent to a teenager? Thats where i won. I know it. So screw you. I did respect you, i did do whatever you want to but to judge me very harshly is not fair. You are being unreasonable. I love you bro, but at this rate, i swear imma kill you soon. PFFT.

im in class. im dying soon. Dian is making me laugh and i cant wait to see Pen Boy and Big Boy . HAHA, inside jokes. heheheh!

Hafriz, sayer sayang kamu okay. lol. :D

THANKS. (:

2009-07-28T06:47:00.000-07:00

Everything is going well. Yes oh yes, im still alive. I know i've not been updating my blog. Deepest apologies for that, I dont see the need to update it as i dont see any exciting events happening in my life currently except for da shocase that I really had fun and totally enjoyed it. So, i shall give briefly describe it to you how is it like for those who didnt came and etc.

Its a new experience. 17 grps competing to fight for the champion. Everyone went out of the box to create an awesome outfit for the group. Im really digging fresh fix outfits but eventhough its common, i find it slick. But not to forget fantastic remix girls, their outfits was mind blowing. I love their jackets, they are like divas. The girls especially. Especially REELLA. I find her one of the dopest dancers in singapore, mind blowing.

Let me state my idols. HEHE!

GIRLS.
-> KATE
-> REELLA
-> ASHLEY
-> B GIRL DIAN.
-> KAK SERI. LADYCHERRIE. (:

GUYS.
-> MAZLAN
-> WAWAN
-> AMSYAR.

That should be all. And not to forget KAK RYNA for believing in me and yes, she has been a great sister to me. Loads of respect and love for her. I sayang her a lot. Well, Fhunkiestylerz clinched champion, fan.remix won second and fresh fix won third. They deserved it like totally, especially f.i.s ! So what there's haters? Ya'll cant bring F.I.S down, they keep stepping up to the game. Sayang korang byk byk.((:

I would like to thank all the supporters who came to support dylimarcell. I love ya'll very much. Especially our juniors, my pillars rhyfresh ,f.nutz , some funky nutz, f.i.s . Thank you kak lisa and hafriz for supporting me, sayang korang. Thank you all. I love you all very much.

Im looking forward to the weekends. I will see my babygirls, dylies and have a wonderful day at heeren during the da crown of honour. I might get to see him that day. LOL, i cant wait to see awesome grp battling out to get into the semi finals. Im rooting for F.I.S , SFB AND F.NUTZ. ALL THE BEST GUYS. MUCH LOVE.

im shagged. School is damn tiring, i hate it, YES, I DISLIKE IT. Its beyond boring. Tsktsk. Now lil bro is being a bitch, so i shall end my boring post now. Bye guys.

-> To you, i miss your presence and your sweet messages. ((: No matter what, i will always like you.

nytes world.

tell me why?

2009-07-20T23:57:00.000-07:00

My love is all i have to give i guess.
Song by : backstreet boys.
This song makes me think, makes me pounder on my actions whether im doing the right thing. Maybe its true, without you in my life, its quite different. The late night chats and webcamming isn’t there. Thats where when i was feeling down, you were there to cheer me up by playing your guitar or sing me some stuff. Thats when i will laugh and my face will look so disgusting coz i was makeup less and i look like a ghost. Yes, loads of similarities. -__-!
“ All the money i add up in the world cannot be compared to the love i have for you” The lyrics, one of it i think.
Its strange how a small phrase can change everything, When i mean everything, simply everything. No text, no call, no more chats and yes nothing. I haven’t heard from you for days, please don’t tell me you are expecting me to do the first move again when you yourself wants us to be close friends. Yes, im reluctant and fickle minded.
I guess im smitten with him, he was the one who make me cry, laugh and smile. I know as days goes by, he will just be a living memory but how i wish that day wouldn’t come coz he is one of the better guys i know. I hope. But not until the other day i found out he went out with other girls but refuse to meet me by saying he is busy and stuff.
How hurt was I? WELL, guess then. I was torn to pieces, i was wondering what do i lack. Maybe my temper and moodswings are the reasons why i was being such a bitch and an annoying one also. But its not wrong, how the hell am i suppose to do? As days passes by, there’s no text from you. If im like the ordinary minah, i will like say “ jantan mcm ko, aku lei carik mane mane lah sial” . Still, i stayed and continued. I don’t know why im being so random and feeling mushy whatever shit it is, coz i love you. I didn’t deny, i told you the truth. Thus after shits happen, the meaning of love to me, seems to differ in many ways
Love is pain, hurt. It’s too hurtful till i don’t want to be in love. Till i don’t know what does it means anymore. No more sayings abt what is love without pain? YES, love with pain = Dying soon.I know this is part you readers go, what is wrong with this girl? Just get over,bitch. Well oh well, I’ve been crushing for a lot of guys so when i really like/love someone, i mean it. So its different dearest readers. I BET many read my blogs but don’t bother tagging, basket. Why am i side track-ing? O.O!
TSKTSK. Im in pain, WHINES. Okay bedekk.
Im at the library with my lovely girls, currently pouring our hearts out to each other. Dian is being a bitch ): ! She was the one who mastermind everything, making us skipped class and now she wants to meet her friends and leave us all alone. And yes, im not talking to her. HHAHAHA! Now, she is in frnt of me, looking at her hp and thinking what excuses to tell me. HAHA. She is my sayang, same goes to ilah and Hanaa((:
I know my topics are jumbled up but just try to tolerate it allright. I took the bus to school today. As in bus 169 from my house to Republic Polytechnic. I told my mom it doesn’t goes to republic polytechnic and my mom give me this CROSS LOOK. HAHA! Thus i decided to try my luck and even if i don’t end up at the opposite bus stop of republic polytechnic, i will reach woodlands Int. During the bus journey while blasting songs into my ear, i didn’t realise that the bus 169 drove pass my old house. Yes, my old house where i lived for 8 solid years. Loads of memories were there, i was nearly in tears when i was looking at my block, 786C. I was still thinking how time flies, its been four years in my new house at yishun but it seems that i just moved there yesterday. I couldn’t seem to erase the house from my mind. The area there really bring back a lot of memories. HELL LOT.
Talking about the past, there are some stuff we did. Such as playing at the badminton court, we all played rounders by using a tennis racket as a bat. With tennis ball and we will like run around the court when we manage to hit the ball. The kecohness and the riuhness, nothing can beat that. And yes,we make it to the point that every weekend we will play it. I tell you, not only 5 players, its like 15 people there, playing. How kecoh is that? Awesome shit.
Me and my neighbours( DYDY FAMILY), we will go bike riding all around the estate, since most of us have bicycles, we will cycle around the neighbourhood. Very kecoh, its like one big family. Especially us kids, i miss those times badly.
I miss everything about it, Its like that house is where a family can really bond except that my father divorced my mom at that house but still, too many memories.
I promised to myself once i get older, i will get an apartment at that area. That area where i grew up to be who i am, A much more civilised person i suppose. Many said i was selekeh when i was young, thanks for the compliment though but they did say i look better now. HAHAHA!
I MISS ADMIRALTY, I SWEAR. I NEVER LIKE YISHUN, ITS SCARY AT NIGHT. Unlike at admiralty,its much more peaceful and safer. I feel very secure, its just the neighbourhood. I miss it. )):

I want a time travel machine, so i can indulge in my past once again. Damn it.
And IBU, sorry for being a bitchy daughter in the morning. -.-! tsktsk, teenagers nowadays arhhh. *shakes head*
ANYWAY,
Dance comp this sat, im screwed. UHHH,scary lahh sial. Idk if i can do it. Wish me luck dear worldI felt that my post is damn jumbled up and very draggy. Its my blog, and i just feel like expressing mmy feelings and thoughts which seems to be in my head for a long time.HEHE!
And i miss rhyfresh badly. Meet ya’ll this sat.
XOXO, BEE. Yes, i do miss you. ):

its finally over.

2009-07-18T12:36:00.001-07:00

As days pass by, whatever you said today make me fall back to reality. What am i doing? What was i thinking? All i wanted to do is not to hurt you anymore since u claimed i hurt you in the past thus i tried to make an effort to make this work. But oh no, whatever you said just now, its not the time. Well, real thanks. You make me waste my time, you make me feel guilty whenever i mingle with other guys, you make me reject guys that who wants to get to know me. THANKS. Real thanks. I felt like i was given a bitch slap right on my face. REAL THANKS. I feel like an idiot right now, thanks.

Im so over it, close friends huh? I think about it. Coz the close friends i have are dylies,rhyfresh and rp mates. Since when are u a part of my close friends? You don’t know a thing about me, nothing, ZILCH. So think about that phrase again, CLOSE FRIENDS? Uhh, you can forget it. Im done waiting or trying to be a good girl , trying to make things work when all my friends can see this WHOLE thing crashing to the ground. Thanks for telling me now. Its a good thing i irritate the shit out of you to tell me the truth. Coz i need it, coz i don’t want to waste my time. Coz i rather mingle with guys and make new friends. Pfft, thanks. You wasted my time dear boy, you can label me whatever coz the bitch is back.

Whatever. I played nice all the way. Never did i hurt you or do anything to make you feel down or such. But the phrase LETS US BE CLOSE FRIENDS FIRST, really changes everything. If you’re not interested, i lagi not interested. There is plenty of guys out there, you know its true. And yes, i was never faithful to you, whatever you said the other day. Yes, i text other guys too coz i don’t think you are that worthy of me uhh at that point of time. LOL, girls. Yezzir, im a bitch in disguise. Who isn’t? This is so normy stuff.

Pfft.

And yes,you win. You manage to hurt me like how i hurt you the last time. Karma huh? Well, too bad its game over, you lose. Coz im so walking away, yes, im leaving you and throwing dirt at your freaking face. All is well and ends well isn’t it? Uh, fcuk it. Thanks anyway for everything, you had been a great friend.

Good bye world. Im not having a good day. But, tmrw im gonna meet my darlings and ilham. We are gonna have a blast i suppose so, YAY. Cant wait. :D!

Dance is getting better, im happier with my crew. Great opportunities come for those who wait. Im blessed right now.

Lil bro was overdramatic today, text me asking me to come home early coz he is scared due to some ghost story that his friend told him earlier that day. -.-! And he keep imagining stuff, -.-! Brothers. And elder bro is not home, i wonder where is he? Basket. Confirm clubbing, midnight movie, ton or do some stupid stuff, -.-! As the elder, he is not home. Baek pe? I bet he is coming home in the early morn and wake me up by 12pm to do housework. PFFT, how i don’t want to endure that shit?

UHH,AKU TK SUKER BUAT KEJE RUMAHH. *runs in circles*

Okay, my eyebags are becoming worse. I need my beauty sleep. I need to cry in my sleep so i will get better and dream about a good dream later. Im tired from dance prac. Aiyohyoh!

Nights world.

XOXO BEE. BYE APIAN. (:

2009-07-18T12:33:00.000-07:00

cause i had a bad day.

2009-07-10T21:54:00.000-07:00

I didnt have time to blog that much, this whole week is like a rollercoaster ride.]
I skipped a lot of classes coz i dont feel well. The temperature in rp is too low, i got a massive headache in class.

Currently, im on my bed crying. Not that im crying, due to my high fever, tears keep on flowing down. Same as in class yest when i was taking UT. 38.8 degrees, NOT FUNNY. I did the science UT without thinking much, i was shivering, my breathing was so loud even indah taught i was going to faint. The class was lovely, they didnt avoid me that much knowing that i was sick. After that, head to W1 to eat smtg coz i was starvg and shivering like mad. Andika,kong,dinah and ila was with me, thanks guys for making me smile. My voice sounds shitty.

NOW!
FEVER = 38.4
COUGH,FLU AND MATE TEMBEL. AND IM HAVING MY PERIOD.

HOW AWESOME IS THAT? pfft

Sorry guys for not tagging along for the movie thingy. too weak and too sick, u noe what i mean. Sorry UNIQUE DESIRE CREW for not attending prac, too weak, my mom refrain me from going out.

i will come for prac once im feelg better. Pray for me that i'll be allright.

good luck F.I.S for the auditions later at heeren.

much loveee.

I MISS DYLIES,RHYFRESH LIKE CRAZY. ):

how about that? ^^ ( scratch all of that)

2009-07-05T19:35:00.000-07:00

-i find this photo insulting and cute. HAHHA.(scratch that all)

--> you should listen to this song, its nice and yes, its an old song.
im currently in sch, surprisingly communications module isnt that bad.((:
and IM NOT LATE FOR SCHOOL TODAY, goyang tetek! :DD

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you
..the way I do
[x2]

im finally getting serious. LOL( scratch that all, i cant be bothered.)

- im unreasonable, yah i noe. at least when u are sick, i care for you and such. but now,its different huh? " OH OKAY TC THEN? " Which girl wont get piss?
i dont even know if u are taking this seriously, but i felt you are taking revenge on me bcoz i reject your love last time. idk what else to say.

-fcuking piss off. girls are not guys,they are much more sensitive,bodoh.

cb.

- im sick. cough,runny nose, sore throat and my body is aching.
symptoms of h1n1,how lovely.Im in rp too, how abt that?

-fcuk it.

Can you meet me halfway right at the borderline? i swear i will be there for you.

2009-07-03T04:40:00.000-07:00

Things doesnt always go your way, but still, cheer up. Nothing can ever stop you from doing something, no one. Those with loads of problems, sort it out and solve it. I bet everyone have loads of problems right? Nothing in the world is perfect, we always encounter with small matters or problems. In this way, it make you stronger and matured. ((:

School is a bliss despite the retarded H1N1, with the company of friends, nothing cannot be compared to them. Its like being in another family, too much laughter,sarcasm and silly antics. HAHA! im missing all of you already, thanks andika for stepping on my flips, and yes, broke it -___-! But million thanks to hanah sayang for purchasing new sandals for me but i cant fit it thus she lend me her sandals and she wore that. I'll be returning it to her on monday, thank you lovee. sayer syg kamu byk byk! and they heard me scream for the first time just now, LOL.

Tomorrow, having dance prac with UDC, i hope it'll be allright. The level of confidence is decreasing, Im scared stiff to dance with them all. I miss abg isaac loads, ((: ! with his guidance, i know everyone can pull thru. I LOVE ABG ISAAC LOADS, THANK U FOR ALLOWING ME AND DYLIES TO DANCE WITH YA'LL ((:

Sunday, performance with rhyfresh at milkrun. I hope i can pull it thru, i learn the choreo yest and the performance on sun. The choreo for swagger like us may seem easy, but i suck at it. Hopefully i can do it. must have confidence, kan kak ryna? HAHA. I LOVE HER :D!

im shagged. I have been cmg late for sch almost everyday. Mom not happy at all. aiyer, i'll try to come early on mon. ^^!
okay bye world. good luck to FREEKZY AND FHUNKIESTYLERZ FOR JIM BEAM COMP. HOPE YA'LL CLINCH CHAMPION OR 2ND. LOVELOVE!

-you love your ex too much, its not easy to move on. at this rate we're going,its never gonna work. My life and your life are totally two diff. world. I cant stop mingling, im sorry then. I never stopped you from doing the same thing.
Im used to being single, its freedom. i love freedom, i dont need someone to ask me not to do this and that. its retarded. -__-! we shall see how it goes coz my heart seems to be with a lot of different people and im so fickle minded. tsktsk~ when will i get serious? LOL.

xoxo,bee.

picasa is retarded.

2009-06-30T05:56:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU A LOT.

2009-06-30T05:54:00.000-07:00

CHECK OUT THE PHOTOS AYEE! FROM SENTOSA, BY ZIMAH DARLING ((:

-.-

2009-06-30T05:48:00.000-07:00

Finally, a day at sentosa with zimah sayang. She was late but everything went well. Food,drinks and the atmosphere is beyond awesome. Its so peaceful, such a laidback day as suggested by zimah. We all chilled, watched vids using my lappie and read some books. Non stop clicks on zimah camera and i swear im not good at photography.

Mostly my pretty photos are all taken by her, so credits to her! :D
Thanks for making my day and forget all the troubles when im at sentosa. Its damn relaxing. Loads of photos were taken at imbia area, and YES! thats my first time going,pathetic, i know -___-! i had great fun becoming a part time model for zimah,HAHA! a FAT model i suppose, but it went great. thanks love! Next time the whole rhyfresh or dylies aye? lovelove!

bye!

:D

2009-06-29T02:20:00.000-07:00

As much as i am eager to type all the happenings in my life, something is stopping me from doing so. Im definitely tired and lazy to describe every single details, HAHA!

Never mind, i shall you brief you bit by bit allright? :D

27 JUNE 2009

LAH! DE FUSE COMP AT BUKIT BATOK CC.

In my opinion, my crew,dylimarcell did great. Many said so, many felt we put up a good show. Im happy, eventhough i know my crew wont win because we only bother to inculcate one culture in the song which is malay, i bet the audience are happy enough with our performances right? :D

Well done FFDC, FUNKY LIL NUTZ AND ESPECIALLY MY DEAREST FHUNKIE STYLERZ.
To kak nurul, you see? YOU all won, im so happy for you and the rest. Many people make mistakes and your one is accidental , not on purpose, and i assure you did great like way great and i love you very much kakak! :DD!

Unique Desire Crew didnt win too, but i love their routine. Loads of thanks to abg isaac, i love ya'll very much. I cannot wait for me and zairi to join you all for MDIS COMP. HEHEHE! I cannot wait siaa, i know im gonna have hell, but hey i need to improve and step up on my dance right? I CANNOT WAIT. I MISS ABG ISAAC VERY MUCH. :DDD

For videos, you must pandai pandai find it at facebook there, i cock up some part , but it was all good right? ^^!

Im just satisfied with my crew performance. thank you guys.

To rhyfresh, you all did great too okay. I told you about my comments sayang, think about it. lovelove! I cant wait to perform this sunday with ya'll at the milkrun. :DDDD

Sadly, a fcuker stole my handphone. Im sad, very sad. A lot of memories are contained in my memory card, Why cant the person steal the phone and take out the sim card and the memory card for me? nabei. Im so pissed. But to my dearest hp, 5610, it has been a great 1 and half year journey with you. Its time for you to find a new owner which i noe it will be with a handphone dealer.HAHAH,wtf? How much can u get by selling my retarded hp? U cannot even read the memory card, only the OWNER knows. haha! I need a new handphone pronto, damn it.

28 JUNE 2009

The big groove = awesome. Thanks hasween for the free tix, definitely appreciate it. The performers were awesome especially all stars. The local crew was great, i love SFB routine, its like BAEK UHH. Especially the choreo for click, definitely loving it. I had a great time eventhough at some parts i nearly fall asleep because this crew was doing all solo. U can imagine 8 people doing their own solos, i was fast asleep. Even gee was tired, LOL . And hats of to o crew,their routine for 32 minutes was beyond awesome. I was speechless and the theme was great. My eyes were glued to GIN dancing, because yes, i agree, a great dancer. I swear. (((:

LOVELOVELOVE TBG.

On my way home, met faris haziq, LOL. that slenge bin bacen, he cracks me up and yes, he just have to remind me about the past cause i was wearing yellow. LOL. in short, i miss that guy. It was fun joking around with him in the train where u can feel a lot of eyes were focusing on us. Funny moments, i cant believe i met him and yes, he sat beside me without knowing who i was until i say, hello or eh,?! hahaa.

29 JUNE.
Currently at home. Im dead bored. Im suppose to go sentosa with zimah and sasha and etc, but hoho, all woke up late. So we ditched the plan. Mom wasnt happy with all of us, each of us got shouted at, its not really fun listening to it but the urge to blast my music when my mom is talking was there. But to refrain myself from being a bitch and a rebellious daughter, i look out of the window and enjoy the breeze while she screamed at all of us. HAHA, how awesome is that? ^^

Shakes head. Im so going out tmrw, maybe heading to RP where a lot of h1n1 cases are or simply go somewhere i can relax. I just need to chill and wash away all the problems that is going on in my life. I need a companion, anyone? HAHAH, we shall see if i can wake up early tomorrow. Its a must to wake up by 7.30am. LOL.

bye world. xoxo, BEE

-im tired of games, dont blame me for disappointing you. not my fault when you dont even talk to me and such. ass

- i miss dylies and rhyfresh. and a lot others((:

rest in peace king of pop.

2009-06-25T22:03:00.000-07:00

Such a loss to the world, the king of pop passed away due to cardiac stuff. Its really sad to see someone that people respect to skies goes away. He is such an inspiration to many, if im not wrong to Chris Brown and a lot of other dancers and singer. His moves and songs make such an impact to people thus making everyone following his style.

I bet he dies like a happy man, fame and dignity. Yes, he may have a lot of flaws and did some horrible things, but who doesnt do that? Even chris brown did something ridiculous which is such a shameful act. Michael Jackson. his no.1 hit songs will always be in our mind. I still remember the song thriller, the video was funny and i cant seem to erase it from my mind when i first saw it. HAHA.

In short, may you rest in peace Michael Jackson,everyone is devastated due to your loss, its just happens too suddenly when the whole wide world got to know about this news. You are my and everyone inspiration, may god bless you and rest in peace.

I am loving your song, give thanks to allah. Do check it out guys,he is able to pronounce it so beautifully which i myself cant. Zimah told me about this song, and yes, my heart and body froze when i heard this song. Tears keep rolling down the cheeks,im not thankful to allah for giving me a great life. Thank you allah, i appreciate it, i love you. ((:

do listen to it okays ((:

LOVE.

soon,i hope?

2009-06-25T09:13:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY TWO SAYANG FROM MY CLASS AND YES, DUE TO H1N1, I CANT MEET THEM FOR A WEEK. U TWO BETTER COME FOR MY COMP THIS SAT OKAY,IMY TWO LIKE TRUCKLOADS. AND I LOVE THIS PICS ANWW, IN SHORT, I LOVE YOU GUYS VERY MUCH ((:

This post is going to be very random. Comp on sat, tmrw rehearsal and i hope we are going to impress ya'll.

please come and support dylimarcell okay?! LOVELOVE

bye world. im very tired. sumpahhh.
xoxo!

I look like a minah? a fat one. -___-

2009-06-25T01:42:00.000-07:00

I look like a minah. Im late for prac. Mom not happy with me for whatesoever reasons which i basically cant be bothered anymore. Younger brother is irritating, pure pest.My body is aching and yes,im not feeling well at all. E learning was retarded, i only did some of the qns at wrksheet and RJ. What else should i do? The communicator is not even working, knnccb.

Pissed enough. I hope prac will be allright, please make me happy or in short, i should stop being cranky. Period is coming i think but please do not come right now. You can come on sunday if you want okays. Not on saturday, plss. -___-!

Dance comp this sat,may allah bless us.

Good luck everyone for this comp, especially RHYFRESH, imy all truckloads. *hugs and kisses*

To freekzy nutz,good luck for the comp at JB. May ya'll clinch champion as usual. LOVES(:

bye world.
- you know i love you right, im trying my best here. fcuk it.

im happy for now.

2009-06-23T11:09:00.000-07:00

i swear she is damn gorgeous, seriously. :D

XOXO.

Click this and check it out, HAHAH. syiqy syg,i noe u are jealous. HEHE! :D and he remembers me, JUMP JUMP. so wad he has a gf? LOL.

Competition in days time.im dead beat. I still cannot believe it will happen in days time, im very worried,tsktsk, -___-!

I hope everything will be allright. Dance prac with dylies was allright and awesome, we are having the bond back, no fights like finally. I hope the remix is hopefully done soon coz i cant wait to hear kak nurul awesome remix. LOVELOVE,thank u kakak. We are hopeless at remixing songs, it always sound wrong. Very wrong,LOL.

Im happy enough right now. Feelings are coming back, damn it. I just need a single mingle life now. Simply to say, im not ready. Furthermore,im in love with bboy gonza from thailand.HAHA! Who isnt in love with him? he is beyond awesome, awesome to the skies.

I noe a bit side track but just tolerate wimme allright.
I miss my rhyfresh-ians, hope to meet ya'll soon. *hearts hearts* ily all.

Tomorrow prac again, i think im gonna be late for school coz im still wide awake right now, haiyoo.

Nights world.this girl has issues waking up early in the morn.How come rp nvr close down for a week or smtg? ):

okay byeeee korang, ily all. but more to bboy gonza :D!

LOL.

SG CHAMP (:

2009-06-21T00:11:00.000-07:00

BBOY GONZA((: XOXO!

As much as i want to go to SG champ today, the thought of asking my mom for permission and being shouted directly to my face isnt a nice experience. I have been going out every single day, BUT hey, monday to fri, i have school. After school,i will busy with dance pracs and i'll reached home arnd 11pm. What do you expect mom? pfft, She simply cant comprehend the fact dance practices is about 3-4hours not 2 hours. Im just too tired or simply cant be bothered to pick up a fight. Fight = hurt my mom feelings. I know, but she should stop insulting me, then maybe thats a start to a stop of endless fights and quarellings.

Irritating nak mampos, serious. She is equivalent to a mosquito, i just need a pesticide or something. I know she want the best out of me but im big enough to take care of myself. PFFT. I feel like an elf at home, doing non-stop chores as if tomorrow is HARI RAYA, watever mom.

I want to go SG champ to support Fate,wan,oneroc,smurf,ash,CA,oneski,sunshine and etc today.I badly want to go, i want to meet BBOY GONZA PLSSS. ): ! TSKTSK, he is an awesome bboy and he is so cute. HEEHEHE! Zimah said he's gay,wtf? Who cares if he's gay? He is totally awesomee in short. ((:

I will try to go, tsktsk. I dont know how,i will figure out something. HEEE! If i cant go, i will just rot at home watching disney channel all day. Currently watching triple x on axn, its lame. Disney channel is showing hercules, wtf?! Lameeee, i need totally spies right now. My daily dosage, LOL.

bye world. bboy gonza damn cute kann? i noe right.
xoxo, BEE,

- boy, i've given up. thats all. Im regretting watever i did, im giving up.

XOXO!

2009-06-19T11:42:00.000-07:00

I LOOK FAT. HAHA,I TOOK PHOTO WITH RICHARD J.LOL.
Today went splendid to my opinion before i reached home. The naggings are not seriously not needed, mom cant stop hinting to me that im not appreciating school and such.

I woke up real late today, i didnt go to school. -__-! For how many times already for this week. Simply to say,i just felt lethargic. I was tired physically and mentally from the dance prac, fights between one another and sleepless nights. School wasnt the thing that excites me at all, doing presentation everyday is definitely boring and hell yes, not that useful. Seriously, i know.

But everything gets better when i reached double dee crib. The company and the jokes was awesome, i couldnt help laughing my ass every single minute. But there were some argument and frustration going on due to some stuff, yes i must say, pfft.

A phonecall from a woman changes the mood, WEE! They wanted dancers to perform today at orchard hotel for GUESS WHO? richard j, k.star and zul mystroe. It was an awesome thing and we wouldnt want to reject it all right? Well, everyone went nutz. Unfortunately,they wanted 4 dancers only so i didnt join them to dance,if not i got to dance alongside with the local talents and of course rhyfresh. (:

The trip to orchard hotel was so longg, i fall asleep at some part of the journey. Double dee was being un-nice at times, haha! He just loves disturbing me, He said, mcm gerek uh.
No, its not.HAHA, but i do not mind. Yes,im a kebab.wth?.

Finally met up with the local talents. Zul mystroe and kak dee was saying adek zul kan? Yes,i am, HAHA. I do chat with richard j and k.starr on msn, they were this is bee? yezzir. (:

They are definitely friendly people. Orchard hotel was simply magnificent to me, idk why. HAHA, the toilet, ya'll should check it out. its like wow. I wish it was my room, awesome service.
I was not dressed for the occasion,i wore this sleeveless jersey and shoe and a sling bag while people there are wearing dresses and heels. So u can imagine how awkward it was,but it was aite. I had a fantabulous time with them all. K.star doing some weird dance make us laugh, we were just relaxing in the very cold room. I heard richard j. speak some malay, haha! It was niceee, LOL. Syiqy couldnt wait to take photo with richard j, -.-! she thought richard j was from america or something. How cute is this young one?

The performance was great. Zul mystroe was damn awesome, his gf couldnt stop shouting and clapping. ((: In short, all of you did great. I love my witch and sexy loveee, kening naek naek ((:

im shagged. theres SG champ tmrw,im going for sure. I need to support friends and i wishh good luck to all of you guys who took part in the comp. lucks and love!

i love today. ((:

i miss dylies already. anna and naz, swimming perhaps? next week. whee! ((:

more than words.

2009-06-14T13:04:00.000-07:00

St.Fest event was pretty allright. I came late i thought the event had already started but pfft, its not even the first competitor performing. LOL!!

Zimah,me,sasha and dinah and hetty of course. Not to forget with F.nutz and RSC, wad a combo. Youth park is definitely not the spot to hold events, its very hot and stuffy, and the weather is humid, is not helping at all. Ended up,everyone kept going cathay cineleisure to cool themselves down like us. HAHAH, around 7pm then we head back to youth park when it is much more cooler.

Congrats nanep for getting second for the solo category but i would prefer u getting first, u were awesome on stage, much love to u ((: !!

Nidya was so pretty and she looks good with nanep, HEHE! I love them both, being a couple and such, last long lovebirds. ((:

I met armsyar and others, like a lot.HAHAH, zeella came down too as well as hasween. The roses did great,i prefer their performance than their showcase. -.-!! I dont feel it when they were performing to compete in the comp. I prefer SICK routine, still, congrats to both grp, all of you did great, YPIANS (: !

Apian performed too as a part of the percussion group, yes bacen, u did great. I finally get to see you and chat with you. I managed to pinch ur cheek and hug u, LOL! HAHAH, the videocall just now was awesome and funnyyyyy! U and ur lame jokes but i believed my jokes are even funnier bu i noee damn lamee,pffft! U keep singing more than words and hey there delilah,haha! awesome moments! Im still loving the hindustan tune u played for me using ur guitar, loves ((:

Anw, i had a great awesome time with beloved rhyfresh-ians, someone suddenly did the weirdest thing but somehow sweet. HAHA! I nearly went into a shock mode because of ur actions and kept laughing. I couldnt look at u straight in the eye cause i will end up laughing,i have no idea why.pfft! hahaha, but macam cute uh, k diam. HEHEHE! *KENING NAEK NAEK*
This thing is totally weird but im totally loving it, ((:

-nytes world. Im still watching prison break, season 4 episode 11. haha! I cant seem to get enough of it. I miss my dylies very much especially my best fren,nazratul syaheeda, come homeeee quickly. We so need an outing together, ((: ily besty.

BYEE. XOXO, BEE.

deep thoughts.

2009-06-12T22:22:00.000-07:00

Currently in my room,thinking about some stuff that keep running through my mind. The thought of going to RP for dylies dance prac did not excite me a lil at all. No offence dylies, im totally drained out of my energy.

Cousins sleepover at my house, kecoh nak mampos. U cannot imagine how crazy we get when all of us took the radio switched on misteri jam 12 and my aunty, -___-, was in fact the most scared of listening to it, wth, LOL. She keep changing the volumes to high and low, its damn irritating. But apart from that, we had pepsi and chips late night. Imagine,its like a party already. They were irritated with me typing so loudly when they were listening to misteri jam 12, HAHAHA :D
I was busy chatting with zimah and faliq and faque if im not mistaken, LOL.

I slept at 5.30am, pfft. This eyes cant seem to close and the weather seems so humid. I was sweating after i had my bath at 2.30am, pfft. When i finally put my eyelids to rest, i was woken up at 11.11am by my beloved cousins and my irritating younger brother. He pulled my leg in an upwards position with such force,i thought i was about to fly. PFFT, im so pissed. Im having cramps, not enough sleep and yes, i did a lot of housework.Thats why im so tired to go for prac,No choice, i need to go, i got a comp coming up, i need to do my best, enough said.

Sorry cuzzie,i didnt mean to call u an idiot,i was pissy and cranky. All of you did the work halfway and left me to do the rest,Its very annoying. And u kept checking my handphone and laptop, i dont like people invading my privacy, sorry sayang. ily alimah.

I shall shower and packed up for prac. bye world.

-im still waiting and im still wondering. ):

iloveyouall

2009-06-12T10:45:00.001-07:00

Nothing gonna bring us down,Nothing gonna bring me down. I love my crews,both of them, They are my lifee, my roots and simply my everything. They are the ones putting a smile on my face with their lame jokes, sarcasm and actions. I love them very much, enuf said.
DYLIMARCELL AND RHYFRESH. <33333!> Fawly,u did great for the dance exam, In fact, u outshine the rest of them, i know so coz i see that. Maybe its a blessing in disguise we didnt get thru, im sure Allah has better plans for us. ((: And those who in SGC, will go out one day to find another crew to dance with, and LOOK AT US, we got our own crew. The crew we build up and cherish like a family, SGC is not all that, we just need to look forward. Given a choice, i rather go to LILY CHALET coz its my crewmate birthday party and i wont miss it coz i believed friends come first than others. i love u guys ((:

-Dearest LILY, its not your fault we didnt get through. They just let potential dancers slipped through their fingers.. I believed that YOU did awesome, u guided ur group for the dance exam and u see,most of them got in. Even at the tagboard theres someone voicing out for u why u didnt get thru? SEE, u influenced them. AND YES,U OUTSHINE ALL OF UR GROUPMATES WITHOUT DOUBT. U TEACH THEM THE ROUTINE, IM SO PROUD OF U. IM GLAD THAT U AND FAWLY ARE IN THE SAME CREW AS ME.IM GLAD I PICK U AND PUT IN THE CREW. ((:! remember that, we can still shine with dylimarcell, u noe that too right?

I dont feel that bad not getting through SGC, i noe i did well. Enough said. And even someone that is dear to me said that she doesnt want me to get involve in this politic crap and she believed the judges are a bit bias. So guys, big smiles. Without SGC, we can shine. Those who got in,i congratulate u guys. Adam, no doubt u will get in, U and Raizal should not be called a freshies coz u two outshine most of the seniors and juniors already especially u, ADAM. im so happy for u ((:!

Isya,im gonna miss u loads, the time we had in the camp,the bonding,i miss it already. I miss u hun,i see u soon okay love ((:

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO GOT THRU SGC. IM NOT SURE IF IM COMING TO TRY OUT FOR NEXT YEAR, WE SHALL SEE. ((:

- TO my dearest dopest fren,u noe who u are, cheer up. I noe u will solve all the problems and get through it all. Whatever it is,im here for u dope friend, u noe that dont u?eventhough im not that close to u, u have the greatest gf u ever had and will be there for u without doubt.
CHEER UP DOPEST FRIEND, u noe i got ur back ((:

xoxo,bee!

iM still wide awakeee.

2009-06-10T11:00:00.000-07:00

GUILTY OR INNOCENT:

RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
(So people reading this, if you want an explanation.. comment.)

Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this. Then see what happens.

--

Asked someone to marry you?
Innocent

Kissed one of your Facebook friends?
Guilty

Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

Ever told a lie?
Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have back?
Guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Innocent

Kissed a picture?
Guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
Guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

Held a snake?
Innocent

Been suspended from school?
Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Guilty

Stolen from a store?
Guilty

Been fired from a job?
Innocent

Done something you regret?
Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Innocent

Kissed in the rain?
Innocent

Sat on a roof top?
Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

Sang in the shower?
Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Innocent

Shaved your head?
Innocent

Slept naked?
Guilty ((:

Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

Been in a band?
Innocent

Shot a gun?
Innocent

Donated Blood?
Innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent

Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

Still love someone you shouldn't?
Guilty

Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Guilty

Been too honest?
Guilty

Ruined a surprise?
Innocent

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you cant walk afterwards?
Guilty

Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Guilty

Joined a pageant?
Innocent

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty

Had communication w/ your ex?
Guilty

DATING Someone?
Guilty

Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Innocent

A total stranger treat you by paying your jeepney/tricycle fare?
Innocent

Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

Okay,i was bored. Im using the desktop currently, its a bit weird coz im used to using my lappie.Since dearest syiqy forgot to pass my laptop on the way home, i need to use this. Nevermind, a desktop isnt that bad,its nicee also except that i cant lie on my comfy bed and watch movies all over again. I need to sit on this chair and everything is dark -.-!

Not fun. Prac was allright, a bit of arguments, some threw tantrums and some were simply retarded. Rhyfresh-ians had prac at rp too, love them loads. Another circle of friends that i trust, more than friends i suppose,my PILLARS. ((:

Im suppose to be sleeping but im not.tsktsk. The weather is humid or something,im sweating eventhough the fan is switched on at full blast and i just finished bathing. Time to on the aircon,kening naek naek! I shall do that later, hehehe! ((:

bye world. Im tired already seyyyyy, Meeting rhyfresh-ians later to take my lappie,LOL.
XOXO, bee.

FML.

2009-06-09T13:35:00.000-07:00

Its 4.35am in the morning,im still not yet asleep. Im lying on my bed thinking about events or simply small things thats has been occuring lately. Just now,Sis and me was starving and we did some french toast at 3am, retarded and silly. Our stomach been grumbling so why not cook something light before snuggling under the blankets and fall into a deep sleep. (:

So much for that, did something just now,browsed into someone facebook,froze for couple of minutes. The fact didnt seem to digest into my head, read the lines like hundreds of time before accepting it. I didnt know it thats why i pressed on. After knowing it, this girl aint following. She is staying away. Its not hurting at all, simply surprised. Disappointed a lil but definitely not meant to be. When you think about it, like really think about it,its ridiculous. So whats done is done,i will treat him like how ya'll treat him. The same respect,nothing more or nothing less. I dont feel the need to give him more than that right? I dont want to get this mixed signals and end up feeling miserable as days pass by.

I still have my DYLIES,RHYFRESH,THECLIQUES,BK MATES,RP MATES AND MY FAMILY(OF COURSE) behind me. How will i ever be alone in this world? LOL. Overdramatic.

I met FAQUE just now,like finally. I miss you truckloads, u have become skinnier and much more better looking. You can find girls already or girls will be after you already. Im so happy that u are ______ and i miss you, I DO OKAY. ((: see u soon dokkk!

Instead of being broken hearted and feeling lost or down, i focus on other things. I made a decision in doing something, i noe its gonna benefit me,I dont intend to let anyone know so pls dont bother asking, its irritating if u keep asking. I might get cranky. (:

I hope its worth it,i shall not be _____________. Its my turn, i hate being _________.
Happy guessing what is it,i bet Zimah gonna ask me to explain but syg i wont okays ((:!

I should give other a chance,im selfish. I break other guys heart now its karma. I nvr give them a chance,im selfish. Now i seriously despise myself, pfft, At least i gave reasons why i did this and that and yes its the truth okay. -.-

i seriously need to think and give people a chance. shit. ):

- hati ini telah jatuh,jatuh cinta kepada mu. ( can blardy scratch that siak. )

bye world. XOXO, bee.

It somehow feels so right. idk why,

2009-06-08T12:35:00.000-07:00

Saat pertama aku kali ku pandang wajahmu

Kau membuat hati ku terus terpaku

Bila ku kelu bibir ku terkata

Ape sebabnya

Ini niatku utk mu hanyala Satu

Hati ini hanya tahu untuk mencintai mu

Tapi bagaimana harus ku lafaskan apa jawabnya

Hati ini telah jatuh, jatuh cinta kepadamu

Ku harap kau akan tahu niat suci hatiku

Hatimu dan hatiku tiada tentu sama

Ku takuti akhir kisah kita kecewa

Harap kau terima ku dengan seadatnya

Inginkan bermula episod cinta kita

( Some of it is totally wrong,the last part,i cannot make out some of the words,LOL)

Im totally loving this song, idk why. Its so moving and im totally loving it ((:

INI NIATKU by verbalise flo. ((:

- Im still wide awake,i cant sleep. Friends, fast and furious 4, my wife and kids, UP accompanied me throughout this lonely night. Im feeling quite lost somehow im lost. I dont know what im supposed to do. Stay or walk away? Why must this thing keep repeating? Its irritating, the thought of being a lesbian isnt that bad.HAHAHAH! K SHUT UP.

My body is still aching for god knows why, i find myself weak and useless. I get cranky and pissy nowadays, another problem. I totally have issues, something is totally wrong with me. The tembel on my eye is not getting better,its irksome. I feel like poking it but mom said dont,she decided to be doctor and put hot rice covered with hankerchief and dabbed it on the eyes. Damn painful, the thing burst -____-! i might as well poke it. I hope it gets better,i dont think i look nice with that eye. I look like o.O!!

hahahah. Currently it itches like a bitch, the temptation to scratch it is there, GRR. Im hungry, im like a pig. I seriously need to stop eating, damn it. Getting fatter and fatter. Some prefer me to be like this,some says i need to go for serious diet-ing. ASS! :(

The urge to cut my hair,its so long and irritting. Its so hard to tame long hair, i find my hair at times UGLY AND DISGUSTING. Its just messy -.-! Some refrain me from cutting coz they love me with long hair and some told me to trim it. But i like long and thick hair, If i perm it, FUYYY, macam lawar uh,HAHAHAHH. K DIAM. ((:

Im meeting my babygirls tomorrow,rhyfresh! I cant wait,i miss them truckloads. Will be going lot one or something.Im still clueless, well oh well, i think i need to sleep. Before that,i shall watch gossip girls last episode,i have been repeating it for 2252514234 times,the whole season i meant. My daily dosage. and chatting with U of course,HAHA. I stay low because im afraid i might get crushed again.

bye world. XOXO, B. u noe you love me. (:
- do me a favour,tell me what you think of me.

bootcamp ke pe?! HAHA

2009-06-07T09:22:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU GUYS ALREADYYY )): !!

Finally, im on my comfortable bed using my beloved lappie. Bootcamp was awesome and tiring, learn new stuff which will help the freshies better if they get thru the SGC audtions. Surprisingly, my group won champion for the choreo and such. But many THANKS TO ADAM, coz he was the one who did the positions and choreo most of it. He as usual,humble to the max, wont accept credit. Thats the thing i like about him,damn humble. baik pe adam?! HAHAH.
Still, the girls choreo the routine for begging song and we mix it with the guys choreo, it works! HAHAHA, didnt expect it though, we managed to pull it off. Wheee!

Our group = Beat addicts.
A lot of disagreement but no one bothers to voice out even me,tsktsk! Many have different ideas and many wants to lead the group. I appreciate the initiative guys but i think you should all agree to one idea and listen to one person at a time.Instead,some of you make your own decisions and wanted this and that. I and isya were pissed, we just kept our silence.Im scared if we tried voicing out, a major fight will break out and the routine would not be done. Thankfully, at last we settled on the same ground and able to work together, HURRAY!

Im honoured to be in that group, friendship was created and i make new friends.Im elated, just beyond happy. Eventhough i did not sleep for one whole day, BEAT ADDICTS didnt bore me to death or simply to say, didnt put me to sleep. ((:!

We shall see one another soon,i hope all of us get through ayte, cross fingers,im gonna miss ya'll.

XOXO,B.

* Heard you and her seem to be on great terms, i guess i shall walk away then. Its a bit ridiculous when you think about it, its like weird but somehow this weird thing makes me smilee so wide. DAMN IT. Whatever it is, all the best. I just hope whatever i heard wasnt true. tsktsk!

bye world.

im liking you,thats for sure.

2009-06-03T10:58:00.000-07:00

Do me a favor And tell me what you think about me
Tell me how you want this to be
Go out on a limb and just dream

Paint a picture
Choose your colors extra wise
Especially what you put on my mind
Imagine what it be like to touch
The sky
Yay
Yeah

Woho Your thoughts are gonna pick me up Do you know It´s good to feel too much
Woha
You´ve got my head in the clouds
Woha
You´ve got me thinking out loud
The more you dream about me
The more that I believe
That nothing´s ever out of reach
So dream, dream, dream

I breath your visions They pull me to the coldest of nights They steer me towards a moment in time When you show me what it means for you To be mine
Yeah

Woho
Your giving me the will to try Do you know That there´s happy in your eyes
Woha
You´ve got my head in the clouds
Woha
You´ve got me thinking out loud The more you dream about me The more that I believe That nothing´s ever out of reach So dream, dream, dream

Ha
It´s like my birthday Everytime you look at me
It´s like the best day
Everytime that you
Dream
(Yeah)

Woho
Your thoughts are gonna pick me up Do you know It´s good to feel too much Much
Woha
You´ve got my head in the clouds
Woha
You´ve got me thinking out loud
The more you dream about me
The more that I believe
That nothing´s ever out of reach
So dream, dream
Dream
Dream
Yeah

The more you dream about me
The more that I believe
That nothing´s ever out of reach
So dream, dream, dream
Dream

somehow it meant something,somehow im just dreaming.

2009-06-03T08:52:00.000-07:00

I wanted to put some lyrics and such but it belong to someone and i dont think its a good idea to put it here.Who knows theres some people who might copy it and make it into their own? You never know. I am loving I WANNA KEEP YOU SONG. I love the lyrics,its meaningful and its not to make you feel any better okay. (:

You walked into my life, and stopped my suffering
You took my breathe away the sweetest thing i've seen

OKAY, thats the most im gonna type out. I might get another scolding from him for putting it down, kening naek naek. Zimah, you know who kan.HAHAHA.

Dance prac with dylies was allright, it ended early for the first time. Eyebrows goes into a frown formation.YES, it was weird. I reached home at 9pm, how early was that? pfft, but we got some choreos up our sleeve, it isnt that bad, but im sure its better than ____! We might make u go ooohhh and ur mouths will be wide open when u see us doing our thang. Thus im thankful to ____ for helping us. loves.

Im tired. Nanep has a comp tomorrow,he is urging me to go while doing the puppy eyes, so tempting but im not suppose to go out tomorrow.SHIT, i'll try to come down okay nanep,u noe i love you bacen,HAHAHA! DIAM LAH. :)
I will try to be there to support u ayeee, we shall see. *kening naek naek*

I cant wait for friday, dance prac with rhyfresh, i might be watching faliq singing at plaza singapura with rhyfresh,we shall see. I'll try to come as promised.((:

sat and sunday boot camp, and i might be coming down for international idol to suppot isk and reza and alif (:

im packed for the weekends, i hope i can get thru SGC auditions,wish me luck loves!

XOXO, B. u noe u love meee. lol

PICTURE PERFECT.

2009-06-02T00:41:00.000-07:00

lovelies ((:
MY PILLARS,MY RHYFRESH. W/O ZIMAH AND DOUBLE DEE AND WAWA
ONESKI AND ONEROC. (:
FREEKZY AIRCHO. :D
LOVEBIRDS. LIL KIDD LOVE FREEKZY SLICK.
I LOVE YOU ADEK ARYLL.
FREEKZY NUTZ. The tees looks nice,HAHA :D
MY DINAH, i heart you, D. :)
ANOTHER LOVEBIRDS, damn cute. i love you two okay.
I HEART ADEK ARYLL :)
CHECK OUT DINAH AND MY TEE.LOL. dopefren, adam.

SASHA LOVE AND DINAH SYG. MY D AND MY S. ((:

i love them all, Xoxo, B.

Okay, im so loving all the photos taken by double dee camera. I had a great day with them all,. they nvr fail to make me smile. I miss my dylies so much and i cant wait for tomorrow dance prac with them all. Followed by on fri, i got prac with my rhyfresh, i just cant wait to meet them all. Such lovelies,i treasure them all. Dylies and rhyfresh made a great impact on my life, sweet and sour memories i treasure them all. Without them, im nothing, especially DYLIES. thanks ayeee. :D

Holidays are here,im bored to the effin' maximum. No plans, most of them are schooling especially april intake students for ite and o lvl and n lvl students. TSKTSK! So im officially planless for most of the days. I cant make it to class outing, SORRY.ERI and DIAN is pissed with me, its on friday and i got dance prac with rhyfresh, i cant make it for suree. Im sorry loveess,i meet you all soon, i know ya'll cant get enough of my lame jokes and etc. *kening naek naek*

Other than that,today i will be meeting kak LISA at last,its been months okay. She is busy and im always busy with outings. o.O! Since im planless and about to suffocate in this house,why not go out and meet her? ((:
Im heading to the civic library to do some studying, i need it. My studies are going under, shit.!
Maths and Science. So much for thinking this subjects will not exist in poly life. Too bad,my worst fears keep coming back, i hate this two subjects. I cant do much but to study for it,pfft. :(

I miss a lot of people. And i cant wait for bootcamp this sat for SGC second round of auditions, lets pray hard i get through coz i noe adam will get through it easily,TSKTSK.HAHAHA!
But still,im gonna try my best and prove them wrong, hehehe. SUDAH SUDAH, i cant wait for lily chalet where i'll be partying with my dylies,one fham and snickers.FUYY, WEEKENDS, hurry hurry, i cant wait ((:

bye loves. xoxo,B.

((:

2009-05-31T09:45:00.000-07:00

CONGRATS F.NUTZ, FUNKY NUTZ AND FALIQ.
F.NUTZ = OPEN CAT. CHAMPION
FUNKY NUTZ = 2ND FOR CAT.A
FALIQ = BEST MALE PEFORMANCE

CONGRATS GUYSSS, I HOPE F.NUTZ LOVES WHAT RHYFRESH DID FOR YA'LL, EVENTHO ITS A SMALL GESTURE, IT COMES FROM THE HEART. WE LOVE F.NUTZ, u all noe that right? :))!

ADAM, I HOPE YOU LIKE THE TEE,HAHAHAHA!
ALIF : THE TEEE MADE BY DINAH.
ISK, ITS FROM ZIMAH ANW.
ALAN, ITS FROM SASHA.
FAUZIE, ITS FROM LIL KIDD,U NOEE WHO RIGHT?
SHAZRAN AND ARYLL, THE CARDBOARD IS FROM RHYFRESH OKAYS.

((:

im shagged, i bet my mom gonna give me a silent treatment, i rebel, tsktsk.im a bad girl, shakes head. tomorrow, im so gonna stay homee all day, i dont have the mood to go out, HAHA :D

Rhyfresh gonna bomb the stageee soon,haters can seriously fcuk off, especially you pineapple, fcuktard.

bye world.im shagged.

dylies.. rhyfresh.

2009-05-30T11:24:00.000-07:00

RAIYAN BIN SALIM AND HAZIMAH.IMY ALL ALREADY :(
RHYFRESH! without double dee.

yupyup, im in RHYFRESH. and DYLIES. :D!

Everything is going smoothly,i hope. No fights or arguments, im missing loads of people,countless i guess. Dylies, Rhyfresh , one Fham. Somehow, im a bit distant by dylies but still, you all are in my heart always. My two best friends, Naz and dydy, please do not think i forgot u all or what aye.

Anyway, congrats NUTZ CREW for getting through to the finals. All of you did extremely well,especially FREEKZY NUTZ,im expecting you all to clinch the title for the open category, HAHA, (:
Aryll did great, baek skali, ily adek ((:
Adam,alif,alan,iskandar and shazran= as always, awesome to the extremest.
Fauzie = i totally love his acting and not to forget his moves, "HETTY SUKE SKALI KAN? "

And we have a surprise for ya'll tomorrow i think, we shall see. *kening naek naek*

FUNKY NUTZ was awesome, i didnt forget it. The image of HAFIZ wearing the wig and acting girly still makes me smile. That guy, HAHA, full with his funny antics, im glad i got to know you and the rest.
GROOVY NUTZ, =DD! Amalia and fazirah, (i still cant remember their names), WHATEVER IT IS, you two did exceptionally well during the competition. Outstanding, i love it love it. (:

BIG SMILE FOR YOU TWO, im happy that i got to know you cute lil girls. :D!

PHAT NUTZ, = :DDDD!
They are so small and cute, i badly want to pinch their cheeks, so damn cute. tsktsk! Kids are so cute nowadays and they can even dance well, YAYNESS. (somehow it reminds me of someone, i cant remember who said this,hahah!)

30T, you guys were AWESOME MACAM NAK MAMPOS LA EH. I love your costume and make up, FUYY. HAKIM, you did well, i love it. Syazwan, HALIM, kane, yanie and another girl, (i cant remember her name, again. -..- ) ANYWAY, u all did great, love it.

I met nanep and nidya at last, miss them badly. Saw amsyar frm SFB and others, mira sherman was there too,she so small i want to pinch her and i realised she smile so wide when her bf is performing,who else but not AMEER from Funky nutz? HAHAHA :D

So many people im missing. RAIYAN,CIKLIN,CIKDAH,FATHIAH,ALIMAH! :((
this group of people tooo : Dylies,schmates,bk mates, sec sch clique.tsktsk! and F.I.S and 3OT especially, ((: i met ya'll at last, miss those times we hang out and do silly stuff. HAHA! hang out soon okays?

I think im heading to the finals tomorrow with rhyfresh-ians. Hope everything gonna be awesome.

bye world. im shagged.

HAHAHA.

2009-05-26T23:37:00.000-07:00

WHEN FRIENDS ARE IN DENIAL.HAIZ, WHAT TO DO EH? DIAN CHECK IT OUT.SHOW ANDIKA,hahahah! :D!!

jgn nak tipu dokkk,LOL

imma show you how to love somebody.

2009-05-26T18:08:00.000-07:00

Im skipped school today, im having a bad stomach ache, I cant sleep, too much tossing and turning. My stomach starts to get queasy and painful, i knew i will be late for school due to the fact i have been rushing in and out of the toilet. Not fun and not funny. Tiring and i miss school already except some mates in my class, they are just damn annoying and self centered bitch ass. ((:

Im doing some revision, *KENING NAEK NAEK* . Doing some stuff since i cant go back to sleep,im waiting for mummy to bring home some food for my suddenly flat tummy, :DDD!
Im starving, i just hope she brings me a hearty breakfast coz im missing sardine puff,jempot jempot, waffles and mango juice so badly from school. TSKTSK! Never mind,i will be coming to RP later for dylies dance prac, HAHA, im so gonna buy ice milk tea and waffles :DD!

check this song out,i know its an old one, but im loving it.Thanks to FREEKZY.NUTZ for using this song for their dance routine and im currently hooked to it. :DD

Ohhhh Weeeeee!!
Man I gotta thing for a girl that I don't even know.
Everybody in the hood say she's a whore.
But I don't think so.I'm gonna try you anyway.
I could turn a whore into a housewife any day.
It can even go the other way around.
That's because of the pimping from teddy penderazzdoun
OK here comes the manipulation
I ain't trying to please her with my money precipitation.
Aviona watch and the Aviona (PIECE!)
Yellow bracelet and the king Johny (TEETH!)
I could be like hey miss lady
I got a black and grey Mercedes
I got a Cadillac car and a Cadillac truck.
Man but I got the feeling she really doesn't give a fuck
I wanna get to know her.
And if I give her the keys to my crib I'm gonna sit her down and show her she can.

[Hook:]
Lay down and let me lay with you.
If you stay around then I'm gonna stay with you.
Ain't no way I'm leaving girl let's talk about it.
Come here, I'm gonna show you how to love somebody.

[T-Pain]
She's a cool Super duper down ass bitch
If she was a cup of liquor I would down that bitch like
Dun dun dun dun dun dun duuuun! Nappy boy queen. God damn I done crowned that bitch. BITCH!
2 weeks and we done fell into it. And ain't nobody have to tell her to do it.
I'm asking some questions about before me. I had to make sure I knew she wasn't a whore.
She just looking for a nigga that can treat her like pain.
Take her to the movies, buy her brand new things.
But niggas treat her like OH! SKEET! SKRRRRRRRR!
Never heard of them ripping up her phone number, never heard a word from them
But she ain't got to worry about them niggas.
Live life shawty you can do without them niggas.
But what can I say?
Tell them kiss your ass 'cause at the end of the day you gotta place to

[Hook]

[T-Pain]
Don't listen to them they just jealous of you and me.
I care less about what you did, it ain't got nothing do with me.
I'm in love, you are too, let's do what we do.
And baby girl I'm gonna show you how to love somebody.
Don't listen to them they just jealous of you and me.
I care less about what you did, it ain't got nothing do with me.
I'm in love, you are too, so let's do what we do.
And baby girl I'm gonna show you how to love somebody.

DAMN CUTEE ((:

2009-05-25T00:19:00.000-07:00

Im crushing for someone already,tsktsk.Me and my gatalness -____-! seriously.
I seem to like everyonee, HAHAH! :D i bet it only last for a while but who knows i might stand a chance?! *kening naek naek*
HEHEHE, OK ENUF ABT ME.

NOW, check this shit out. DAMN CUTEE, make me laugh and smile so muchhh. :DD!

im in class,faci looking at me and im still blogging.tsktsk!

HAHAH, ok bye world.

hahaha!

2009-05-24T10:00:00.000-07:00

see this crazy girl, -.-!

she really loves this guy uhh, LOL ((:
and she doesnt believe i will put it on my blog. there u go zimah.HAHAHHA :DDD

Today international idol was awesomeee,totally :DDD! i loveee their performance,freekzy and rhyfresh. damn MAOT ((:

loves((:

i got UT test tmrw,im dead. Tmrw dylies meeting, i hope its gonna be okay. (:

nytes world.

:DDD

2009-05-24T01:42:00.000-07:00

my all time favourite. I find chris brown so cute and hot at 3.03 :)
u MUST check it out aye.

UT test tmrw,im screwed. :)

bye world.

:))

2009-05-23T11:12:00.000-07:00

BOTY was awesome, love it. Eventhough i felt awkward due to rhyfresh went to do their performance at pending, i was there alonee. HAHA! i have eerah's company thru the phone and adek aryll entertain me for a while. HAHA, slack gf too, nt to forget,she is such a pretty chick, :)!

Im shagged. tomorrow i have plans,i need to come to watch my sayangs compete in a comp, good luck hetty and zimah and double dee :D . And not to forget,freekzies. :)

Things in dylies is not going well, stupid lil arguments,lets settle this.somehow i felt the bond is gone, at this rate,dylies can break apart. -.-! i dont want tat either. so settle it soon.

im so sleepy but im not ready to sleep. i hurt a guy feelings just now, im so sorry.i dont mean it at all. :(

nytes world.

GET OUT OF MY FACE,BITCHES.

2009-05-22T22:22:00.000-07:00

( HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGIRL.ILYVM)
School has been tiring, seriously. I dont know why i seem to get tired easily once i reached home and all i think is to just sleep on my comfy bed. tsktsk!

Mom is unhappy with me, she seems to think im being pure lazy and always have excuses to save myself from being scolded. PFFT, i prefer staying at school a bit longer,its like a second home, the atmosphere, the hangout areas, its pretty awesome. Everyone will agree with the fact that RP is a great hangout place to dance or bboy or just chill around. Theres a big library and theres three pool tables and a cafe there. Im so lovin' poly life eventhough i miss sec sch life when im being pushed to do my best and teachers guiding me at every single thing. I guess its time to grow up and spread my wings. I cannot rely on my teachers or facilitator.

I miss sec sch life so much, those precious moments. Recess/lunch break = chilling sessions with best friends and classmates. That is what we called a proper lunch, stress free for a while. Unlike RP, we need to multi task. doing presentation and eating, pfft. Its all so rushing, i dont like it, i dislike it. Everyone agrees with it , haiz. My grades is not improving, its bad to worst. HELP! i dont like asking question,i like asking questions when i seek the teacher by myself. But not for RP, u need to ask questions, some even ask no-link questions,terribly irritating. -___-!

I need to buck up, i need to get A's and B's. Im pissed with those who get B'S AND A'S for doing less work but the others who does the work get C'S AND D'S. KNNCCB. aku bingit giler babi sial, tk kelakar, I've done most of the work and i got C. wahhhhsialccb. :(!

TSKTSK. faci sial.

My mom is driving me crazy, i am going crazy. I want go out, i want get out of this fcuked up house. She is driving me up the wall, driving me nuts. Im so pissed. Even if i sit down and watch teevee,she started scolding. I walked to the kitchen,she started scolding. WAHSIAK. I go into the toilet, she started scolding. She seriously need to go some anger management course uh, ERGH.
Maybe pms, uh fcuk it. sikit sikit marah, ape sajeee sak.

MY SPACE,MY SAY. IF MY YOUNGER BRO IS READING THIS, U CAN SERIOUSLY FCUK OFF COZ U HAVE BEEN A PEST. STUPID BROTHERS INCLUDE THE BIGGER VERSION. THATS EVEN FCUKING WORST. HE SCOLDED ME FOR NOT DOING CHORES WHILE HE IS ON THE COMP, WAHSIAL. THEN HE MAKE A MESS AND WALK AWAY.WAHSIAL. PERANGAI SATU SATU MINTK KENE SEPAK PAT MUKE.MY SISTER, PFFT. SHE SLEEPS TILL 1PM AND NOW SHE IS LECTURING ME WHY AM I NOT DOING THE CHORES, CB. AKU BINGIT,IM ANGRY AND MOODY. I DIDNT GO FOR MY FREN BIRTHDAY PARTY BECAUSE OF THIS SHIT AND TO MAKE MY MOM HAPPY FOR STAYING AT HOME TILL 4PM. IM SO GOING OUT,IM GOING TO BOTY, THIS FAM CAN GO TO HELL FOR A WHILE. SERIOUSLY. IF I HAVE A CHOICE,I RATHER STAY AT RP HOSTEL. SIAL. :(

AND TO NAZRATUL SYAHEEDA, MY BESTY IN THIS WORLD.IM SORRY I DIDNT COME TO UR BITHDAY BASH AT SENTOSA.ITS RAINING LIKE SOME BITCHES AND IM SORRY OKAY. I WILL MAKE IT UP TO U BABYGIRL.IM SORRY MAKCIK, I PROMISED U I WILL TREAT U SOMETHING NICE WHEN THE MONEY COMES ROLLING IN :)
ILOVEYOU BABYGIRL, NAZ. :D

bye world. im so pissed u cnt imagine how.

'/

i love dylies,rhyfresh and freekzy :)

2009-05-17T04:40:00.000-07:00

GREAT TIME WITH MY PILLARS. AS WELL AS FREEKZY NUTZ. :D

Hope u had a great timee MUHAMMAD FAUZIE AKA MR.SLICK, im glad that u were happy and such. This is all most to hetty planning, much love to ur babygirl :))

I was late as usual, i met them at arnd 4pm. LOL. it was allright and such, we had fun. Things went a bit off at arnd FAR EAST PLAZA. I had fun watching alif eating, he seem to eat everything and yes, he loves kicap and mayonnaise. LIKE LOADS OF IT, he eat so fast, i was totally amaze. I dont quite like the HOTPLATE RICE BEEF at cahaya, thanks alan for recommending it -.-!!

Hotplate are totally scary, its like damn hot and the thing keep popping. DAMN IT. Eventhough things went a bit crazy,i still have my pillars wimme, im happy enuf. Zimah went home first, i miss that cuzzie of mine already. :D

All the long walk leads to merlion. -.-! They played a question game and I swear, fauzie was the clown, he cant stop making us laugh. Adam seems to be the winner at every game,pfft. Most of them are daring enough to the forfeit, it was hell of a funny gamee. Fauzie gave them difficult task,unfair. HAHA! I love it when alan ask fauzie to do a danceeee, haha! FUNNY. :D

overall,it was great. I met my lovelies at undergrnd. Dydy,anna, f.i.s and 3OT. im dancing with they all i guess,doing a collabo for a performance i think. HAHA! I cant wait cause i miss them so much and its so long that we spent much time together. with love,bee!

my besty,naz and dydy, imy two damn much.Im sorry if i cant make it to our lil outings or something,but u two have been my bestfrens eversince pri sch. thank u besties. :))

oh happy day :D

my pillars.my love. freekzy nutz and rhyfresh :D

2009-05-10T08:19:00.000-07:00

i had an awesome time with my babygirls and freekzy nutz. They totally make my day,sadly i didnt get to meet my dylies but we will meet up soon for sure.

Well to start off,i finally get to see RHYFRESH in action, performing for wawa frens birthday party which turns out to be my friend too.LOL, happy birthday chabelle, may u be a happy girl as always.Everything doesnt turn out right, my hp went flat, such a bitch. I didnt top up my ezlink thus i need to use coins to take bus. I took 969 and then 31. Yes, i was lost. I even asked for directions how to go to east coast. It was scary and without my hp to cntact anyone. i began to panic. YES, panic very badly. Zimah told me to get out of my house quickly as double dee is on his way to simei so i need to be quick. while i was in the bus,zimah msg me they otw to eunos. how pissed i was, we were suppose to meet up at tamp,well, i couldnt be bothered. I really was lost and just desperate to meet them all.

I finally reached macdonald ecp at 6pm. BUT, the rest werent there. My hp went flat, i cant remember anyone number. I began to panic,bought hot fudge sundae and began to think. I began to have thoughts such as rhyfresh performance was cancelled and such. Imagine that,i will be alone at ecp without any directions. But at last, i quickly use the public phone at 7 eleven and called DYDY, thank u dydy, He called hasween and conference it. Yes, i was whining and freaking out. I know im suppose to chill but if i go through a lot of lengths just to come here and its cancelled, i will murder ZIMAH, i was already pissed off and tired. Luckily hasween told me to stay at ecp mac,she is otw. THANK U HASWEEN,ILY dokk :D

while i was waiting. i saw ADAM FREEKZY. I WAS SO HAPPY,finally someone i knoww is there. I practically told him everything that happen, i was freaking out. Then he use his hp and called alif to call zimah. GUESS WHAT? i was quite pissed with zimah coz she said she is still otw. pfft, they reached ecp at 8 plus. I was there at 6pm, so two hours, haiz. shakes head X10. Hasween came arnd 7.30pm, :D im happy enuf.

after that,we all walked towards gold kist. everyone was sweating and swearing. Fauzie was whining and such,hetty legs hurt. the rest was already pissed off, we felt as sticky as glue, seriously. Finally reached there, it suck. -.-!! there wasnt a stage and such, they were not paid but to dance at the pavement.But its allright, we do this for a friend birthday,so its okayy kan? at least we managed to attack on their drinks and food :D

And oh yes,they did well, im happy. i kept shouting their names,HAHA! syiqy and sasha was out of placee at a lot of parts,HAH! there isnt enuf space for them to move around,wat to do. Not forgetting, i saw eem and sharkill and bart. Was surprised.eem shouted my namee, HEYHO! i missed him loads,his jokes and crap. Botak head, policeee ke pe dokkk! haha :D

thennn, we ate and do our stuff. Talked crap, adam a bit high , talking crap and such,haha! mcm mcm uh that guyy! we make our way back to mac ecp. DINAH treat me caramel frappe, haha! thank u syg, thats the punishment for making me wait for 2hrs plus. -.-! haha!

then all of us proceed towards the bus stop, chaotic. I sat with double dee,that awesome guy. we talked crap non-stop. awesome awesome. As usual, fauzie and hetty the lovebirds, haha! they shld get a room,they look damn cute together. haha! fauzie never fail to make her laugh, im happy that hetty is happy. Bee syg hetty okay! :D

me,ddee,zimah,wawa,wawa bf,sasha,dinah went zimah house. chilled and suchh. wawa proceed home coz her parents doenst allow. We all did stupid stuff. Straight away all switched on computer and laptops. Sasha was the first one to bath, thenn amy and then ddee, me and finally dinah. zimah didnt bath -.-! smelly girl, walauwe. HAHA! i was nagging siaa. I bathed arnd 4am and yes, we watched step up 2 and some soccer. Drank a lot of water and consumed junk food. We were hungryyy. It was raining so heavily, there were thunder and lightning. Double dee couldnt sleep, HAHAH! He was in the living room,he called sasha and tell her. I was laughing my ass off. We had a talk and such. dinah,me,sasha,zimah and ddee. it was somehow relaxing and ddee sound like a pak aji at some time.HAHAH!! Amy was asleeeeppp alreadyy, haha! 4am and he is already flat. While we all slept arnd 7am till 12pm. I couldnt sleep at some timee, maybe its too cold or not comfortable. Dinah woke up arnd 9am, crazy girl. I heard her in the living room using zimah lappy and blasting some songs. I was groggy and woke up, shakes head when i saw her in the living room at 9am. 2 hours of sleep only,tsktsk! everyone woke up like finally at 12pm.

Sasha and me cooked breakfast for them, DINAH didnt finished her food, grr! haha! nvm, at least u ate something. Then the cute couple came, very noisy. Wawa came even earlier arnd 12pm pluss, i still remember that. HAHA! good thing i bathed already, arnd 3pm. Talk crap and such,simply chilling. Watch zimah admirer doing his moves,damn funny. I couldnt stop laughing with the rest.LOL!

We then proceed to mac at fajar. met up with al azlan shah! haha! fauzie went a bit crazy and talk crap. Double dee with non stop sarcasm,HAHA! Deena,me and sasha chilling. Zimah was having a talk with azlan, We got free food,thank u yasin. LOVES :D i enjoyed the spicy snack wrap loads,HAHAH! :))

then we proceed to zimah grandma hse as zimah wanted to take microphone coz the rest wanted to karaoke and such. Ended up,the mic doesnt work, we were so pissed off. I remembered that,once we reached zimah hse,the girls run towards zimah room that was air conditioned and switch on the fan and bounce on her bed.HAHAH! awesomeee,laughterr in the air. :DD

the guys, who wanna step macho, set outside and watch disaster movie with zimah bro and his friend. After that, i was the one who changed the cd to X men 2, and only some of us watched it including me while the others played UNO. so chaotic, as usual, fauzie with his funny actions, thus making the game interesting.

I had a great dayy, i love it. I thank my pillars, rhyfresh and freekzy nutz for making my day.totally love it. lovess, i cant wait for our next slpover, im sure its gonna be a hell of a lot dopeeeness. :D

and i still remember,me,zimah and dinah singing knock u down and let me know. Recording it using zimah lappy. I sound like a frog,HAHA! and truly enuf,after we sang,it rain. HAHA! COOL KAN,so thank us for the cold weather. And sasha was glued to the computer playing CS -.-! and i danced while dinah and zimah was singing knock u down. HAH! i was boreddd wad :D

AND I MET CIKLIN AND RAIYAN OUTSIDE ZIMAH HOUSE. I WAS SO HAPPY. I MISS RAIYAN SO DAMN MUCH :DD!! lovesss. and he called me zimah instead of habibah. -.-! hahahah :D and he kissed meee,awww, i love u raiyan.

im tired,i need to sleep.tmrw = sch. im so tiredd. pfft. bye world.

eyecandy,yes you

2009-05-03T00:47:00.000-07:00

NYEHAHA! im happy with my grades for school, I have received all B's and one C. C - COMMUNICATION, fcuktard. Never mind, i shall continue this good progress i guess but i would be happy if i get an A or something, haiz, Sadcase. Nvm, i shall be patient and get an A allright, sunday = boredom. Im still on my bed using my worthless lappy, i hope it gets better tomorrow after i send it for repair or something, very irritating u noe, everything is lost and i can get into the leo system,i need to use my dekstop to check instead,how irritating is that.

Yest birthday party for anna was a bit -.-! stupid things happen,everyone throwing tantrums. All i noe it didnt end well. Me,naz and dydy = annoyed,pissed and damn irritated. enuf said, some people should just change for the better instead of being like a whiny bitch or simply immature. damn it, i cant stand it. Not appreciating what people do for you, im speechless. Dont make us reach to a certain point we dont even want to get close to you, dont try our patience. damn it.

pfft, im so pissed. if ure not happy wimme, idc. WHY? coz the others will back me up for suree, sue me for all i caree la ehs.

nevermind,thanks acap for listening to my irritating story.HAHA! thanks oi :)

bye world. i cant wait to go to sch tmrw. and and wait, i saw this vid on facebook, from TP students singing a song called eyecandy,they made it.look at the lyrics,HAHA, its so like me but i dont wear FBT shorts to go sch :) enjoy world.

I see him walking towards me,
makes my heart beat endlessly
tell me how, i can hardly breathe... Read More

he gave me a smile and said "hello"
my mind got messed up, can't hardly follow
want you to stay, please don't go

So why did you smile at me
don't you know whacha doing to me
make me quiver in my FBTs
can't you see (x2)

CHORUS:
Stay, stay, stay awhile with me,
i'm diggin you in your checked tee
won't you turn around and talk to me now
Stay, stay, stay awhile with me,
you make my life complete
what would i do without you,
my Eyecandy. (x3)

You smiled at me at FOC. (:

i cant read your mind

2009-04-30T11:45:00.000-07:00

Its three in the morning and im still awake for god knows why. Today - bad day!
Firstly, the module i hated is held today. Secondly, the faci is damn lame and irritating. Thirdly, he drags the lesson till 4pm and take his own sweet time. Fourthly, most of my classmates laugh at some lame jokes that is not funny at all and their laughter is irritating nak mampos. Fifthly, I ate lunch alone in the class by videocalling Lily on msn cause all of us need to do powerpoint presentation. Sixthly, my handphone decided to become a bitch and cause some problems. Lastly, my laptop went crazy and i need to reboot it and everything is gone!

Hurray for me? NO. Im nt in the mood, this laptop is fcuking irritating. All the programmes gone and how the hell am i suppose to go for class on MONDAY? 0.0! Nvm, i will figure out a way soon.
Handphone wasnt being nice, it was acting so independently, switches off my music player on its own, siak, attitude problem. -.-!!
PFFT but on a good note, something that make me smile is able to watch my wife and kids on youtube and webcamming with ZIMAH SYG ;D! i miss her a lot, wheres raiyan?!

Im addicted to this song,let me know by NTL, damn nice. I love the choreo by SFB, its supa dope and fresh! much respect :)

I joined 4 CCAs and i think im crazy. Well,its for trial basis what. HAHA, i just love to sign up for everything. DRAMA,HIPHOP IG, BEATS ENCORE AND EMP. Well, beats encore is more to percussions and such, emp = making beats like a DJ.

How cool shit is that? nyehaha!

I just hope i will be able to juggle, idk which one to commit most, aiyah, dead uh dead. But still,theres auditions for this stuff, idt i can make it for EMP and beats encore. HHAHAHA!
We shall see and wish me luck. Im so sleepy, nytes world.

*a chance would be nice and let me know.

ohhh ohhhh!

2009-04-27T04:07:00.000-07:00

You found a new love,im so happy for you. I made the right choice of leaving, i didnt bustard you, i apologize, i state my reasons why im doing this and such. But still, im glad i did it. I never want to hurt you or what.I aint a bitch, i was never mean at all. Thats the past and im glad you found a new lovee =) im so happy for you. May you be happy always in your life dearest friend, you know who you are. I just read your blog post, =)! yay for you, loves!

School is tiring and awesome. Maths module just now was a bit confusing but we manage to pull it off due to CHITWAN, god bless his soul, He explain everything so easily, i was impressed. You can just imagine the look on my faceee, im so HAPPY. yay!

Im miss looking at cute and hot guys at RP,come out wherever you are. And some minahs and mat rep just come to rp to have their lunch and they thought we were scared of them coz we shifted upstairs to the cafe. Berok, and they wore shabbily, it was disgusting. They are just simply a disgrace to a malay society. They even sleep in the canteen, the guy. I was like wtf? sekolah ko ke pe siak?! and its just a standard minah routine to loiter around and making a fuss. Whatever eh, we just walked away,pfft.

other than that, fawly did a weird thing,make me and lily laughed,u cannot imagine what he did allright, 0,0!! Funny.

ok bye loves! i miss a lot of people. DYDY WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU SIAK?!-.-

random.

2009-04-25T05:35:00.000-07:00

Portrait of an ESFP - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
(Extraverted Sensing with Introverted Feeling)

i am The Performer

After taking the personality test, i got the ENTERTAINER/PERFORMER.so truee.lol =DD!

As an ESFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

ESFPs live in the world of people possibilties. They love people and new experiences. They are lively and fun, and enjoy being the center of attention. They live in the here-and-now, and relish excitement and drama in their lives.

ESFPs have very strong inter-personal skills, and may find themselves in the role of the peacemaker frequently. Since they make decisions by using their personal values, they are usually very sympathetic and concerned for other people's well-being. They're usually quite generous and warm. They are very observant about other people, and seem to sense what is wrong with someone before others might, responding warmly with a solution to a practical need. They might not be the best advice-givers in the world, because they dislike theory and future-planning, but they are great for giving practical care.

ESFP is definitely a spontaneous, optimistic individual. They love to have fun. If the ESFP has not developed their Thinking side by giving consideration to rational thought processing, they tend to become over-indulgent, and place more importance on immediate sensation and gratification than on their duties and obligations. They may also avoid looking at long-term consequences of their actions.

For the ESFP, the entire world is a stage. They love to be the center of attention and perform for people. They're constantly putting on a show for others to entertain them and make them happy. They enjoy stimulating other people's senses, and are extremely good at it. They would love nothing more than for life to be a continual party, in which they play the role of the fun-loving host.

ESFPs love people, and everybody loves an ESFP. One of their greatest gifts is their general acceptance of everyone. They are upbeat and enthusiastic, and genuinely like almost everybody. An ESFP is unfailingly warm and generous with their friends, and they generally treat everyone as a friend. However, once crosesed, an ESFP is likely to make a very strong and stubborn judgment against the person who crossed them. They are capable of deep dislike in such a situation.

The ESFP under a great deal of stress gets overwhelmed with negatives thoughts and possibilities. As an optimistic individual who lives in the world of possibilities, negative possibilities do not sit well with them. In an effort to combat these thoughts, they're likely to come up with simple, global statements to explain away the problem. These simplistic explanations may or may not truly get to the nature of the issue, but they serve the ESFP well by allowing them to get over it.

ESFPs are likely to be very practical, although they hate structure and routine. They like to "go with the flow", trusting in their ability to improvise in any situation presented to them. They learn best with "hands-on" experience, rather than by studying a book. They're uncomfortable with theory. If an ESFP hasn't developed their intuitive side, they may tend to avoid situations which involve a lot of theoretical thinking, or which are complex and ambiguous. For this reason, an ESFP may have difficulty in school. On the other hand, the ESFP does extremely well in situations where they're allowed to learn by interacting with others, or in which they "learn by doing".

ESFPs have a very well-developed appreciation for aesthetic beauty, and an excellent sense of space and function. If they have the means, they're likely to have to have many beautiful possessions, and an artfully furnished home. In general, they take great pleasure in objects of aesthetic beauty. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the finer things in life, such as good food and good wine.

The ESFP is a great team player. He or she is not likely to create any problems or fuss, and is likely to create the most fun environment possible for getting the task done. ESFPs will do best in careers in which they are able to use their excellent people skills, along with their abilities to meld ideas into structured formats. Since they are fast-paced individuals who like new experiences, they should choose careers which offer or require a lot of diversity, as well as people skills.

ESFPs usually like to feel strongly bonded with other people, and have a connection with animals and small children that is not found in most other types. They're likely to have a strong appreciation for the beauties of nature as well.

The ESFP has a tremendous love for life, and knows how to have fun. They like to bring others along on their fun-rides, and are typically a lot of fun to be with. They're flexible, adaptable, genuinely interested in people, and usually kind-hearted. They have a special ability to get a lot of fun out of life, but they need to watch out for the pitfalls associated with living entirely in the moment.

first week.

2009-04-24T06:49:00.000-07:00

Poly life is pretty fun and such but its really tiring at some point of time. Time passes so fast and you dont realise its the end of the lessons. I had awesome fun in my team today,mostly we crapped a lot. But the last part wasnt that sweet, other teams make fun of us and my classmates,most of them are immatures. I cant seem to understand whats the joke and they laugh at it so hard till they want to cry. So u get my drift how lame is my classmates? Some of it lah,but im quite close to dian,pradeep. So im happy enough. AND DIAN AND ME make a decision,he is such a turn off, eew, didnt want to elaborate more. OKAY OKAY,im tiredd already. i want to sleeep =)

No plans for tmrw, it will be a boring saturday. Not a surprise,pfft. =(
and RP is full of hot guys, like 60%, lol. Its really nice to see the HOTTIES walking pass u and smiling at you,HEHEH, gives u a nice feeling. K SHUT UP, haha!

SO CUTEE,MUST WATCH!

bye guys!

SUP?!

2009-04-21T06:34:00.001-07:00

TEAM FOUR, SUP?!!

Im not playing nice,so stay away. pfft.!

YAHYAH,im feeling a bit moody and pissy. I dont know why, everyone actions and words seems to affect me in every way. Im not being immature but idk why i react like a kid. Whatever, its over. No use crying over spilled milk. At this rate,im never gonna have a relationship coz im still in a joyful mingling life. I prefer to be like this, single and so carefree. Its been like this and yes,i love it and i dont want to lose it. NO!NO NO!!

Hot guy, drools! HAHA, every girl does that okay, we get all so hyped up when see hot guys walking your way or something. Me and fawly couldnt get enough of them in RP, too many too count. Lily cant stop laughing at our silly expressions. HEHE! OH HAPPY DAY.

Somehow im so loving poly life, i feel so relaxxx. Seriously. After the module, meet up with my babygirls, lily and fawly. We will chill at a food court and just eat some stuff before hanging around RP doing our RJ. HAHA, im loving it definitely.

Team for today was simply awesome! We had a lot of fun and laughter. The faci dont quite like us though,well who cares? We did our job and yes, our one was the nicest but wordy. Some fellow mates should fcuking shut up and stop asking stupid qns, i was rude. BUT WHO CARES? who is the one asking dumbfcuk qns? and yes, the faci gave me the im not happy with you look to me and syakila. HAHA, fcuk u lah sial. who caress? bias bias, i dislike her, the class was boring. She was trying hard to make it fun -.-! and this two chinese guys really need to shut up and stop cracking lame jokes that is suitable for 5 yr old kiddo. whats so funny saying ur own name? PFFT, immatures!

Anw, i met adam at KOUFU. He was wearing his F SIGN SHIRT, semangat freekzy all the way. I told him to wear im RHAFANAH PROPERTY teeshirt tomorrow so other girls can screw themselves up. FUNNY FUNNY, we webcam tomorrow again and laugh our asses off. LOL!!

Jeanice,cheer up. Choose wisely, point to mr.F!! come on,u noe u want to. HAHAHA

I had fun today except for the last part of the module,fcukette to the max. if she fail me,i will confront her, i swear. i did my job,ccb.

AND ohs,im sorry. idk why im being a lil bitch,sorry.

bye.

2009-04-19T09:49:00.000-07:00

kristine mirelle- let go

Every time I found the words to say
What I thought would make things okay
I kept it all inside
Slowly drowning in my pride
I never could admit my own mistakes
Some how I thought things would fall into place
And I made a change too late

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

Maybe I just thought I had you here
I thought that you would not go anywhere
I abused my position and I didn't care
And now that you no longer turn to me
And it seems that you got over me
I can hardly breathe
You no longer need me
I'm just sorry I found out late but all the choices I Made I thought of me
And not how it'd be to watch you walk away
I know I'll never make it right but everyday I try
In hopes you might come back you're where my heart's at
I have to find a way

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

And everytime I think of you
It's hard for me to think of what I can do
I used to have you here beside me
I just want you here beside me baby
How can the sun keep shinin'
When my whole body's cryin
I know I never told you why
I need you in my life

Ohohohooooo

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

sch starting in 7 hour timeeee, im still wide awake.
imy, i cant let u go yet, im trying to let go.

and to u, sometimes things always go right, theres always glitches. Anything i do never seem to please you,somehow it irritates the shit out of me. Im trying my best here but you are making it harder. U use to have feelings its not gonna work, well now im having it right now. Im sensing that its not gonna work at this rate. just dont xpect much from me, haiz.

im indecisive, im a bad girl. And yes,i love to mingle around, damn it. pfft! i dont know why its a big issue to you, aku stress.

imissremy,hafriz,faris haziq and more. bleahs.

bye world.

RP ORIENTATION. =)

2009-04-17T08:15:00.000-07:00

HAIQAL, go cut ur hair lahs,! haha.

At last,its finally over. Not to bitch about it, the whole thing is very inorganised. SERIOUSLY. The student leaders at some point of time cant make up their mind and ending up giving wrong signals and directions which lead to some miscommunication. DAMN IRRITATING U KNOW. But still,im glad i was given two very patient student leaders and great group that entertain my nonsense. thank you allright, TEAM 17.

Hmmxzxz, at some part of the orientation just now,it was draggy and everyone,YES,everyone was pissy. Everyone wanted to head home but some of them didnt think it was right to leave the student leaders in the lurch, thus we sympathized. I was moody and damn uptight about little things. RP somehow make us do stuff that we OF COURSE find it lame and very SUMPAH tk interesting, We need to dance to some beats with a lame choreography. Me and fawly kept criticizing them all,who cares? If u see the steps, i bet you just walked away. To my surprise, the rest of the mates there just followed along. Coz they are not dancers and couldnt be bothered how stupid they look. Surprisingly , i just did the steps and just had fun. AHH, abt having funnn, fcukette! SOH dont think about the freshmens who came there to have fun,instead, we were pressurize about winning champion and upholding the title. I tell you, the student leaders went crazy about WINNING CHAMPION. Theres this bloody irritating ccb student leader, who kept screaming at us cause we were not willing to do it properly. PLS USE UR BLOODY COMMON SENSE, U SCREAM AT US, WHO WANTS TO DO IT? DAMN IT. No surprise that almost one quarter of the FRESHMENS went home, giving some lame reasons to get away. Others even took their bags and walked off, I RESPECT THAT. SERIOUSLY, me and fawly wanted to walk out but due to the fact our wallet is with our student leader, plan was cancelled.

CCB U KNOW. But at the last part,it was pretty allright.I was in the mood, but during the domino ripple, damn irritating the student leaders. Instructions wasnt clear, Some wants us to do this,some wants us to do that, u cannot imagine how pissy we all look.It was hot and crampy, I just wanted to scream. I gave them the whatever look and yes, one of the student leader stopped bothering me.TAU PON SIAK.

Im happy its over but also thankful to them all who bothers to this stuff, thanks anyway, Sometimes winning isnt everything ok SOH, dont think about it too much laah, U are not making the freshmens really happy at that point of time, we were about to murder some of u all. We are suppose to have fun not to winnn that principal cup rubbish.If we win, thats good,if not its allright.I thought you all should have that mindset and be a good role model. Some of you dont deserve to become SLS, seriously.

Before this stuff happen, we were all separated and assigned to our classes. As for me, i got W45L. HMMMS, level five and the lift is always full. must wait or you can choose to take the flight of stairs,who wants? lols. But i was late, HAHA. AND AND the student leader was from SHL, I was happy to the skies. Damn hot and cuteee, at last i got something to look at unlike my SOH student leaders,pfft. Nothing interesting,it wasnt that bad the class. Everyone was nice,especially the one sitting near me. Multi racial, i like that. Friendly friendly people. Syakirah, Integrated events management students are not stuck up, they are just shy pple, pfft. HAHAH =DD

whatever it is, i had fun. Jam and hop was -.-! The songs is from another century i guess and there were even rock songs. I skipped that part, i dont see the joy of jumping at rock songs, mengarot siol.

tralalala,im so tired and smelly. -.-! good night world. loves!

still,clueless

2009-04-15T08:49:00.000-07:00

I think i might be falling for u or maybe im not. I dont know what do u exactly from me,somehow i dont want get my hopes up and ending up being crushed into lil tiny bits of pieces. I dont mingle that much okay but dont expect a lot from.Im not perfect and i never try to be one.At least im genuine enough, but sometimes it isnt enough for some guys right? I dont know what im suppose to do. Well,lets just wait and seee. This song might be for you,who knows eh?

Am i suppose to let go of my past and moved on? But the truth that has been slapped right at my face forced me to forget the fairytale that i once dreamed about.Staring at my handphone each and everyday,waiting for your messages but i doubt u did that. Instead, u broke my heart in the end. U use the word sorry like you change clothes everyday. Sometimes i felt u dont mean it, u just want me to think the best of you.But somehow i heard from others, everything about u changes. I was speechless, i should just let go. You hurt me enough. I dont even know if i should ever trust u as a friend, u are fake just like some frada bag. U told me u werent attached and such, the rest told me tat u told them all that u were, why do u that for? To play with my feelings? Damn u.
My past, u dont deserve me. At times i hate u so much, but i dont complain coz im scared u would just walk away.Well, it doesnt matter,it still happens right? Enuff said,ure my past.

I just finished talking to apian,he makes me smile for god knows why. Thanks for cheering me up, appreciate it loads. Im sorry if i did anything to hurt u, its just my attitude. I nvr meant to hurt u in any way. XOXO, beee

Im so gg orientation tmrw,i missed a day of fun and laughter. I regretted not going. I overslept, typical typical. I will forced myself to wake up laterr,hmmm =)

well then,i shall bid goodbye. Im clueless,still. The feud with the manager is not yet over, im just engulfed with sadness, i hope we are gonna be good friends again. Forgive me if i judge u harshly but u aint playing fair wimme. I hope loads of happiness, i guess seeing from ur pics, bk pasir ris is the same without me. With that,i walked away from u all coz i felt if im there, i will just bring a lot of problems and misunderstandings. but do remember u all make a very big impact on my life,nvr fail to cheer me up. im sorry for everything mean things i ever done to u all,working with ya'll on certain events brings me such happiness. Im glad i met u all, im sorry once again.

i belong to me.

2009-04-15T00:05:00.000-07:00

Im like suppose to go for RP orientation, but instead i skipped it. It was not on purpose okayy, i woke up arnd 1.50pm. Hahs, im so exhausted from the dancing and the dance practices. And im so not ready for poly life, seriously. Im wondering if i can even wake up on time for school. I so need a super-loud alarm clock,gheez. I seriously need to change my sleeping habits. Sleep by 1am instead of 4am. -___-!

And my phone line has been suspended, WHY OH WHY? All because it reached up to a massive of $_____, and my momsie told me to change to prepaid. PFFT, serve me right la eh. I need to control the amount of msges i sent to people. AIYOH! knnccb.

I havent washed up,im still smelly, i dont want to do any chores but unfortunately i must. Maybe after i'm done with the chores,im heading to cvic library to return books and borrowing some books again. The books i borrowed = not interesting at all. The storyline is whacked and i rather read HARRY POTTER BOOKS, like seriously. Pfft!!

I think im going there aloneee, im phoneless in a sense. I can only receive calls and msges but its equivalent to not having a handphone, GRR! Im getting a ppaid soon, lazy siaaaa want to buy. Hmmmzxzxxz.

Poly starting next monday,ALUHHH! malas nyer but the good thing,i wil not feel bored and i can meet my homies at sch. The bad thing is, im nvr good at making friends. HAHAH! I know, coz im a stuck up bitch ass at the first sight, Some people just might labelled me as a minah and stay away from me. HAIYA, nvr mind, drop the ego and smileeeeeeee so wideee to them all. Im going to the orientation tomorrow i guess or i will get and earful from mom dearest and him. LOL!

Okay then,i better start cracking, doing the chores and etc. =.=! bye them readers,have a great day than me okay! I miss my besty already, shit ass!

bye world.

hmmmxxz

2009-04-14T10:46:00.000-07:00

Well oh well, ite bishan comp was allright.The prize is nevertheless pathetic and the redbull taste funny. -..-!

We won second though, haha! Its really surprising coz its all last minute and usually our practices does not have the full squad. U can imagine how irritating it is? so we only have arnd 5 practices, we aint that bad. I thank allah for giving me a chance to dance with NANEP,SFB and ANDREAS, LIMITED EDITION. not forgetting the others, ite simei dancers and V from voguelicious.I had the time of my life dancing with u all,only for some.HAHAH =DD

videos is up on youtube,check it out if u want to aye.

not related...!

THANK U MR.Apian! FOR THE CARE AND CONCERN.SOMEHOW U MAKE ME SMILE, THANK U. =) appreciate it loadss

tell me wad they know about my love

2009-04-12T10:47:00.000-07:00

Congrats freekzy nutz, pink dollar crew and electric shock for winning groove in the west comp. MUCH RESPECT AND LOVE =D

*i love freekzy nutz siol. =)

I as usual came late for groove in the west comp,loads of apologies to ya'll for not able to watch u all do ur thang,but i watched the video at facebook,u guys are always awesome. for that, *tepuk tgn beribu kali* respect =) as wad u all said, put ur f sign up,saw ur tee, cute siaaa. =DD

Sushi grp, HEHEHE! One of them is so cuteeee,omg! He is the same exact guy i saw at SBDC. hahah! Damn cute and they are dope okay! loves loves!

after all that, me,anna and kak seri headed to city hall undergrnd coz i have prac with the rest. Love the company,as usual i was teased by V and he called me a lesbian and i have a thing for matured man. NO OKAY, i aint a lesbian and pls eh,matured man not really my type,siak ah korang. They can really scream my name and say, EH SIAK UH, U LESBIAN? HAHAA, siak siak. Irritating nyer gayboy, VIMAL AND ZAIRI. Still,i love them to the core.They never fail to make me smile, loves!!

not related. =)

i still miss you, im moving on, but still i miss you. Why must u be mean to me? Sometimes whatever you say,doesnt make any sense. i use to like you like crazy but the way u treat me,i rather shower my love to someone else that appreciate it and deserve it. Ure still my friend no matter what, but please in future,do treat girls better. They have feelings too u know, haiz. I wish all the best for you. i miss u effin' much, i miss ur jokes and sarcasm. U will never fail to reply my msg and making me laugh and smile. But now, a lil incident changes everything. Im disappointed, haiz. But i moved on and im still standing strong without you. I deserve someone better. Thank u mr.r for everything. the laughter and tears. LOL. imy loads. Not forgetting mr.H, haiyaaa. i wish u all the luck in the world for everything u do.
and Mr. faris haziq, im sorry if i hurt u in anyway, i never meant it. Im sorry.

haiz.

AND I MISS MY BABYBOI =)) ILY RAIYAN.

bye world.

happy birthday to me!

2009-04-11T09:17:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU DYLIES FOR CELEBRATING THIS AWESOME BIRTHDAY WIMME. OMG, IM SO TOUCHEDD TO THE EXTREMEST OKAY!!

THANK U NAZ, ANNA, SHAQ, DYDY, FAWLY, LILY, MICKEY, EERAH, EBAL, RIZAL, KAK SERI AND AAMIR. Eventhough amir, kak seri and ebal joined us late, i appreciate it loads. The bowling session was awesomee, i had funnnn. =DD

Thank u to those who bought the expensive cake from secret recipe that cost 51 bucks. I was so shocked, omg! White macadamia chocolate summore, my favourite. thank u loads.

The pizza was great and the company was even better! Eventhough our plan to go marina barrage was cancelled, i had the most wonderful birthday. Thank u!

and thanks naz for sabo-ing me with the cake. My hair and face still smell of the sticky cakee,grr! but it was fun, hahs! I couldnt stop screaming and keep hitting eerah. HAHAH,ILY EERAH. =D

To naz and anna, thank u for the bag and earpiece. ily two besties.
To mickey,thank u for the nike flips. I didnt expect anything from u , i was so surprised that u bought me a present,Thank u very much frm the bottom of my heart.
To lily and fawly, thank u for the cute keychain frm gift a name, its cute and chic. Perasan baby phat, ily guys.

=DDD im the happiest girl in the whole world.

we should do more bowling sessions, it felt great, i love it so much! thanks guyss. =DD

If anytg happen to me, i can die happily as a seventeen year old girl. HEHE!

Thank u for the msges, my inbox is full with them all. =)

AKU HAPPY GILER. =DDDDDDDD!!

oh happy day!

2009-04-10T07:57:00.001-07:00

ANOTHER ADVANCE CELEBRATION. =DD

THANK YOU TO, HASWEEN,ZIMAH,DINAH,HETTY,SYIQY!

SASHA and ME appreciate it loads by the looks of our expression. I didnt expect DINAH to be there coz she told me her nenek is sick and such so she couldnt make it to ZIMAH movie marathon. Its even sweeter that hasween and dinah stayed in the room for me to arrive for almost 4 hours. They nearly died of boredom coz i reached there arnd 6pm. HAHAH, screw me. I didnt noe they gonna surprise me until like that. Even sasha was clueless that hasween and sasha was in zimah room for the whole four hours. HAHA! Whatever u all did for us was very sweet, WE are definitely blessed to have friends like you all. ily all very much!!

The cake was big and chocolatey.OKAY,too chocolatey. I got sick of eating due to much whipped cream but still i love it! Sasha and me shared a slice coz if we ate on our own,we are going to throw it. So why waste it? hehe! i love it!

They even blindfolded me and sasha and lead us to zimah room. Hasween and dinah make a great job by decorating zimah wall with letters stating HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASHA AND BEE. I was touched. It was veryy thoughtful of ya'll. They even make us a corkboard filled with pictures and words. Very cuteee and niceee. I even got a dress, thank u guys. U all made my day. =DD

Well,how awesome is this year? I received two birthday celebration and tmr im going to celebrate my birthday with my DYLIES AND ONEFHAM. AWW! i cant waittttt, im sure its gonna be a blast with everyone being there. Im so looking forward for it coz its been a long time we have a reunion! HEHE! it will be at marina barrage, praying real hard that its not gonna rain. If its rain, screw vimal. He was hoping its gonna rain.HAHAH! Pls come okay v, i miss ur crap already siol! =DDD

LUCKS TO FREEKZY NUTZ AND ANDREAS GRP FOR TMR SEMI FINALS FOR GROOVE IN THE WEST.IM SURE U ALL WILL GET INTO FINALS!!! LOVES!!

bye world. im so tiredd. Seventeen in 1 hour time =DD

happy advance birthday to me! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASHA SYG!

2009-04-09T08:03:00.000-07:00

THANK U GUYS FOR THE MINI CELEBRATION AT KIRAH HOUSE. I LOVE IT AND APPRECIATE IT LOADS. Eventhough redz and kailu cannot make it, im happy enough! With kfc for our lunch and watching white chicks, make me smile so wideee. thank u so much. i love u all very much! =))!

i appreciateee it all. =) next outing, pulau ubin plsss. i wanna go so badly before we start our separate poly life. =DD i cant wait.

meeting hasween,zimah and sdk tmrw. and on sat,meeting dylies and onefham. WHEE! i miss all of them so much. and not forget bk cliques,eventho im having a fite with valerie, i still miss and love u all loads.

NOT FORGETTING, at 12am, its SASHA birthday.!! happy birthday sygg, wow, da 18 and legal. BACEN. im still 16 until this saturday. GRR! IMYVM AND SEE U TMRW SYG. May all ur wishes come trueeee. =DD much love!

bye world.

=)

2009-04-07T10:26:00.000-07:00

im very tired.shagged. my legs hurt, haiz. tmrw dance prac again, aiyo! my mom aint happy at all.

i miss a lot of people. Ex schmates, SDK, zimah, hetty, dylies, bk cliques and etc. meet up soon.
My birthday is coming up, i hope this year it will be a blast. three more days =DD

bye loves!

i should have known better.

2009-04-06T12:45:00.000-07:00

im very clueless. I have no idea what the hell is going on. Somehow it tore me apart to know i have lost a fren due to a small misunderstanding and i dont even noe whats my fault. If i hurt anyone of u in any way with my words or actions,im sorry from the bottom of my heart.

To know that someone that is close to me for almost three years, easily break a friendship without even trying to settle things out. I for once dont even know whats the mistake. Is it my fault? If it is, i will approach you and apologize. But, i dont even know anything right now. U label me a biatch and etc, it hurts. Maybe im thinking too much, but when i saw it, i know it was for me. U were angry with me for god knows why but i hope we can settle things out. If u want to continue hating me after we tried settling it,i dont mind. If it makes u happy, fine by it. I just dont like the idea of fights and etc. I prefer settling this thing out. Its driving me insane, i hate being in the dark.Im like being oblivious to the fact. haiz. wahseyliao. =(

Most of my friends told me to just forget it. Walk away from this friend for being unfair to me because its not worth it. Its not tat i cant do it, i think its such a waste to throw 3 yrs of friendship down the drain for something stupid. I appreciate all my friends, loads. I thank god for giving me such lovely friends that care so much for me. thank u korang, ily all a lot. =)

problems after problems, i hope we can straighten this thing out. I dont feel right, u hating me so much its not making any sense. haiz.

i dont like the idea of losing friends,it hurts. =(

whatever it is, im still going on with life. i aint brooding abt this stuff tat much,it just hurts me.

THANK U DEENA,SASHA,KAK MAS,FAWLY,DYDY,NAZ,ANNA,HETTY,KAK LISA.
for all the advices, i appreciate it a lot. =)

todays prac = loads of laughter.

im feeling a bit happy, finally i did allright. Im gonna put in effort in order to pull this routine off. i hope our routine is dope enuf, *fingers cross* WEEEE. ite comp, can we make it? thats a big question. but i dont mind losing coz im just glad that i got to dance with pple such as andreas and nanep. im happy enuf. =DD

and pls eh, we dont pull strings in order to rise. we rise on our own. dylies do that, we aint a shooting star. remember that eh pple.

i want to tdo. im sickk,

i hope everything gonna be ok soon.

2009-04-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

im still here. =) thanks to those tat made my day. kak mas especially. much love =)

tmrw prac. im sick! yayyy. sial.

down and broken into pieces.

2009-04-04T10:39:00.000-07:00

MR.R doesnt exist in my life no more. He is out of my life. Whatever happens today = sucky. It hurts me inside out. I have no more tears to cry. Im just really sad that small problem lead to big problems wich tends to lead to misunderstanding. Im walking away from this shit, im sorry ya'll. Im walking from them all, i hope u understand. I will only be there if kak lisa is there, she is the only one tat can allow myself to step into the store. If nt, u wont even see my face. Im avoiding, both of u hurt me loads. Im sorry kak lisa for everything, to siddique too. Im gonna miss the others so much but pls dont be mad at me due to my actions. I have a reason and im sure it will benefit everyone.

im moving on. Ur words and actions hurt me too much, i dont understand at all. With tat, i end this shit like right now. Everything. goodbye mr.r . pls get out from my life.

nothing is making me happy even friends, the tv show tat i will always laughed at. Everything happen too sudden, i regret not listening to advices but instead follow my heart. sial.

thank u dydy and kak mas for being there for me. I was vulnerable enuf and i broke down. Now,i picking up the pieces. its time for me to come back to reality. Good thing this shit didnt happen on my birthday. im thankful enough.

be strong habibah,be strg. yea, i will and i must. I wont be emo-ing coz thats for losers. Im gonna be back soon, refresh! so wait up bitches.

imissmybesties very much. naz,dydy,anna and asyraf. =)

my besty,

2009-04-03T10:35:00.000-07:00

my besty, my everything. =D loves!!

sorry to f.i.s tat i cant make it to watch korang performm. I have already promised zimah that i watch dancework since she have extra tics. sorry korang. Still,do set the stage of fireee, im sure u all will do that. much love!

tmr will be meeting zimah, at long last, its been weeks sey as well as hasween.HEH! watching danceworkk and after that will be heading to pasir ris to meet my manager and etc!

sorry dylies, i wil meet u all soon. loves!

byeee.

psst, my birthday is comingggggggggggg! heheheheheheh

=(

2009-04-02T09:33:00.000-07:00

disappointing. idk if im suppose to stay or walk away. its hurtin eventho not much damage has been done. im feeling low. Im sick too. Yessarh, im so moodless. Damn it, thanks to those who tried cheering me up. Much love,thanks =)

byee.

happy birthday mama.

2009-04-01T04:15:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST MOM. I LOVE YOU TO THE EXTREMEST. im sorry if i have been a bad child or watever it is, i'll try to be a better daughter for you allryte. loves! 49 years old, omgggggg, so old already,HAHA! But still i find my mom the most beautiful lady in the whole world. and psst, she is whiter than meee, LOL! happy birthday mom, once again!

I have been wanting to watch 12 rounds badly since last week okay. I was really looking forward to it tau.

MR.R messaged me at exactly around 12.16am. He asked me out, " nk kuar bsk tgk 12 rounds?"
First, i was excited and happy gilerrrr coz at last someone wants to watch 12 rounds wimme then again something kept me thinking. He only have an off day wich is on tue itself and he is asking me out on wed. So i replied, oh ok, wait, u free meh? he replied me with this irritating word, HAHA! i was like huh?! i replied saying, ape hahah?! 0.0!

Tat bacen replied : Erm april fool? HAHAHAHAHA. Im sori. K bye. Gd nite! haha.!
i was already shouting profanities when i read tat message. I totally forgot tat it was april fool, i didnt find it funny at all uh. I was moody and shagged so i decided to be a lil bitch and scolded him. HAHAH! but after tat we messaged with joke and stuff. irritating irritating btol, i find it cute though to apologise after pranking me. At least he knows i will get cranky and screw his ass. LOL! Imy already gilerrr.

Dance prac yest was utterly crap, i find myself disgusting. I cant pull off an easy half split but im nvr good with half splits and etc. HAIYO!
im more into for the rough moves and stuff, flow aint my style. Maybe its time for me to try another genre or something huh? Disappointing gilerrr siaaa, haiz. =(

I prayed that i will be able to pull the routine off with the crew. I find one of the crewmates fucking irritating ccb, not my crew okay, its a collabo thingy. I seriously feel that her bf should go to hell or just turn mute. FCUKETTE,irritating busted. Good thing i didnt start a fight with you, i just gave u a stare. damn u, fucker. Tau pon nak tutop mulot biler sorang jekk, kental punye jantan. idk why im so angry, moodswings -.-! i have been screaming at my sis, lil bro and my mom for being irritating. Idk why it irks me so much. haiz. -.-!

bla bla bla, i miss a lot of people, especially bk mates. I miss the laughter and jokesssss. Nagen,ilham,aman,xiao li, lily,val,mimi,alisa,sid,mel and etc. imy all already so much.

especially u, =)! k da bye.

imy mr,r

2009-03-30T09:37:00.000-07:00

URBAN FLOORMIX COMP!

hmm, my crew didnt managed to get any placing but we did have loads of fun. Im sorry if i was the one who brought the crew down. There wasnt any energy left for me to just jump up and simply do the stunt. With that,sorry dylies. I disappoint ya'll. =( im sorry.

We did have great fun, i was overwhelmed that many supported us, thankss aye from the bottom of my heart. THANK U VERY MUCH, =) to dinah,hetty,sasha,syiqy,kak z,hasween,abg isaac and TMC. Limited edition and of course my own cliques,dylimarcell. thank u, ily all very much.

nevertheless, i had great funn. =D eventhough the emcee was whack and irritating to the extremest, thanks for organising this event aye. Dylimarcell will be back for sure. Catch us soon at ite comp, we gonna blow ur mind for sure aye. =))!

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i swear i had the greatest time hanging out with the people at bk downtown east. U all really put a big smile on my face. Never fail to make me laugh every second when we were outside bk chilling. Credits to nagen and ilham, funny bacens. I cant seem to get enough of ur lame jokes and sarcasm. Im so gonna go out this thurs wit ya'll coz im starting miss korang badly. =D im damn glad tat i meet people like ya'll especially MR.R. im happy to the skies sia.

Thank u for sending me and kak lisa home. I will remember the lame jokes tat were made in ur car. I was being irritating and asking what is ( TPE,CTE,PIE,KPE,SLE,BKE) . U cant believed wad were my answers.

KPE = KAPPA EXPRESSWAY
CTE = CITY HALL EXPRESSWAY
PIE = PAN _____ EXPRESSWAY
BKE = BUKIT TIMAH EXPRESSWAY
TPE: TAMPINESS EXPRESSWAY
SLE: SENGKANG EXPRESSWAY

i was blardy stupid uh,idk at all. HE had a great time laughing at my answers, bacen btol. After sending kak lisa home, i was happy i finally got to spend some time with u. LOL! talking crap ader lah, how slenge can HE be. He doesnt trust my directions, haiya. WHERES THE TRUST?lol. i reached home arnd 3.3oam. Im happy tat we really managed to talk openly without anyone interrupting us and such, imysm. and i like u more than her okay. MAMPOS -.-

OKAY OKAY, i want to tdo. i miss a lot of pple. Dance prac tmr at 3pm, haiyoyo!

gotta bounce. peace.

aiyooo

2009-03-27T07:24:00.000-07:00

BUY ME ANY OF THESE SHOES UH FOR MY BIRTHDAY.HAHAHAH! *coughsMOTHERcoughs*

I did went out with the cliques just now,i had fun, loads of laughter. Im happy i finally got to meet my bestfren,asyraf. ily very much besty,berok sial. KENING AKU TTP FULL OK?! HAHAHAHAHAHAH. (inside joke)

ANW, this is so gonna be a random and bore-u-to-death post, so just continue reading to pls me aye.

Girls share everything between each other, DUH. who doesnt? Guys shldnt mind that much, aiyoyoyo!

Im like a nervous wreck,i cant breathe, IM SO SCARED STIFF FOR TMRW, IDK WHY. I noe i have done this loads of time but im so effin' scaredddddd la. OMG.!!

Thank u to them all for wishing me good luck, i need all the luck in the world for tmrw. Our routine is a bit -,-! So dont expect much from us aye but we will do our best to give ya'll a performance that is worth watching. im scared like hell. seriously

Dylimarcell,tmrw for real. -.-!

AKU TAKOT LA SIAL.

Urban floormix comp at yuhua cc near chinese garden at 7pm. Pls do come and support, tix at 3 bucks.be nice! and support every grp in there.MUCH LOVE

imy. mr. r!

sad day.

2009-03-25T03:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes things or events happen unexpectedly, it took me off guard yesterday night. Nearly make me scream for a while,didnt expect it would happenned. Yes, i know allah loves her more, and i strongly believed that. I regretted not visiting her when she is in hospital, i only went once. I regret, i should have put aside dance and outings to visit her. Forgive me aunt, im sorry, like loads of apologies.

Well, when we visited her house, unhappiness and silence filled the house. Many went in to kiss my aunt before wrapping her in kain kapan. Unfortunately, we were late. My mom cried non stop, she was very close to her. She cant stop crying, somehow it breaks my heart. When i saw his son and daughter crying, tears began filling up my eyes. I kept crying, everyone did. Her daughter looked lifeless and her son couldnt bear to let her mom go. Their father was in a shocked state but somehow he managed to accept the bitter fact. But what to do,we need to let her go, she had enuf sufferings due to cancer. I prefer letting her go, allah loves her more, we all know.

We took the bus to a muslim cemetery near old chua chu kang area and it was so hot okays. While everyone was in the bus and the driver switch on some nasyid songs, i kept crying. Everyone was. The jenazah was behind us, i dont feel happy at all, its just so sad. The bus was silent except for my adek who have to be superbly annoying and unfortunately sat beside me.HAIZ, patience with that lil kid, -.-

Finally, reached there. The guys did the burial and such, i watched from a distance and just sampaikan doa for her. When its the last part, everyone toook stones and flowers, and bisik some doa. I cried again. Her son and her husband,were hugging and crying. My mom, cried again. My heart sanked. I told her not to cry,let her go mom.

Well its hard,i know. My mom is very close with her since young, this is life, everything is unpredictable. I learned a lot from this sad event, treasure ur close ones and be nicee to them. I decided to be nice to my lil bro eventho he drive me crazy. For my mom, i love her so much and nothing could replace her. If something happen, i will go lifeless or just go crazy.

After the burial, we went back my aunt house to do some tahlil and some stuff. I cried again coz his son was crying again. I cant seem to hold back my tears, =( . I pitied my dearest cousins as they now are left with their father and they are still schooling. Good thing they are big enough, one is in university (KAK FARHANA,TITIK), and one is in singapore poly( ABG KHALIS,ALIS).

They looked much better after the tahlil and stuff. But somehow i can feel they were pretending and trying to put a strg front. Im sure they will let her go and lead their lives normally eventhough it will be slightly different starting from today. I hugged kak farhana, she smiled. I miss her very much and i never talk to her for so long already. She is damn pretty, with or without make up,she is the purest and prettiest woman i ever seen. Much respect to her, i love her and i miss her smile.

dearest aunt, rest in peace, ibu,me and the others will miss you very much. Allah loves you very much, u are the such a kind and nice soul and no doubt many will miss your presence in their life. Im sorry if i ever hurt u in any way, im sorry.

allahyarhama hajjah habibah bte abdul majid.

she have the same name as me, =) blesss you. imy.

*sorry to dylies for not cmg to dance prac. came back quite late and my mom doesnt allow me to go and i have learn to respect her decision. sorry guys. im coming tmrw for sure,wit love. =)

please take care of this guy.

2009-03-23T01:37:00.000-07:00

to DEAREST ABG ISAAC,GET WELL REAL SOON.IMYVM AND ILYVM.SORRY I CANT MAKE IT TODAY TO VISIT U.IM SORRY,BLAME MY MOM = MONSTA. she doesnt let me out,sorryy. I will meet u soon, im sorry. i wish u will have a speedy recovery okay!!! loves!!

the greatest brother u can ever have, abg isaac. please get well real soon.

no comments.

2009-03-23T00:04:00.000-07:00

Mood: disappointed and sad.
Song : broken hearted girl - beyonce

Why am i feeling like this?

Well, i receive a very big blow, to me that someone that is dear to me is getting engage, soon. BAEK AH. Im referring to my bro ex girlfriend, i treasure her loads and i was expecting she and my bro to be back together soon. A year has passed and she is getting engage soon. I cant blame her right? But i seriously think she is moving too fast like a nascar and i think she should think if its the right choice kan? I know its just tunang and not marriage but that idea nvr seem to struck me until today when i nearly get the shock of my life. I cant blame her ryte? Blame my big bro for being a stupid ass for not treasuring her and u noe wad, my family really approves of sheila apart from all the gerls my bro been dating. Disappointment. HAISH. and she even ask me for help to inform my bro NOT to contact with her unless its something urgent. U noe wad? i told her to tell him herself, i dont want to the one to be passing this messages arnd. Im feeling so down and u expect me to tell my bro? baek pe. -.-!

But i nvr hate u kakak, i still love u as my kakak and i do treasure as one. its been exactly one year since i met you but since this thing had happen,i dont think i want to meet you. Somehow i can accept the fact u will be with this another guy, damn. OKAY,AKU CHILDISH.but tklei accept la siol. walaowe! give me timeee okays, give me some time. =(

Still,i wish u all the luck in the world and i hope u will always be bless from allah. I hope you make the right choice in choosing tat guy and i hope u wont regret ur actions. with that,i love you kakak, i always do.

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not related to the topic above.

WELL OH WELL, i managed to watch race to witch mountain with dearest kak mas( my abg ex gf) and i seriously think i can click with my bro gf and ex. HAHHA! i got a thing for it u seee. LOL! i bet my bro wont be that please if he knows. sape heran? =)

its awesome, i swear. 10/10. screw those who said its not a gd movie, kepala tetek korang. HEHEHE. I cant wait for HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE, UP, NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2, 17 AGAIN. WHEEE, i cant wait. Im so watching 17 again,my boyfriend is acting. who else if its not ZACK EFRON,drools to the max!

and i met u just now. Im so happy eventhough we nvr talk due to some reasons. I am so loving ur shocked face when u seee meee, loveslovesloves! imyvm, i cant wait to see u soooonnn. =)))

msges!

him:u pikir i sorg jek pat saner? hahah, beli 4d!
me: bli 4d, u cute pe. haha! thanks eh buat bdh bile nmpk i, *tepuk tgn beribu kali*
him: u tell me how? si ____ ader, mcm maner nk bobal. I wanted to, but how?
me: cmpak loveletters uh.HAHAH! yahh,she is there, grrrrrr, rawr! irritatings. LOL
him: haha,what to do. if i ader,dier pon ader wad.
me: oh i forget,tu ur besty and ur syg wad.
him: ur mummy lahhhh. HAHAH.

=.=! sometimes he irritate the shit out of me,sometimes he make me laugh like hell. bittersweet moments. for that, i thank allah for letting me meet this irritating fren of mineee. HAHA!

dada,i gtg. imy oik!

*you make me smile yet still theres pain.* mr. R

and i miss onefham,dylies,deena,sasha and etc.

peace!

2009-03-21T10:40:00.000-07:00

nothing will change the fact tat i like you and i miss you so much. Somehow whats the reason to like you but it just happens.IDK WHY. imy effin much . =(

song: dugaan dari illahi,sang by thaqif.

2009-03-20T00:41:00.000-07:00

THAQIF, he so big already and cute. FAINTS! and i still remember my brother singing this song, sorry eh abg, this dude sings way better. FUHH =D. cairrrrr, *drools!

worth listening to him singing, i hope he make it big, great vocal. LOVES!

HAMSTERS.

2009-03-18T09:03:00.000-07:00

my dead hamster.imyvm akachichibaba. lol =) ilyvm okay!
GAWD!

Looking at this hamster pics remind me of the joy of having a hamster.DAMN, i miss having a pet, only hamsters okay. My family anti-cats, we are just scared of them,seriously. I dont know why its just that they are not furry CUTE little pets,they are a monster in disguise, so full of surprises u noeeeeeeeeeee.

But taking care of a pet requires a hell of a big responsibility. Im always lazy to wash its cage and cleaning it up and im busy too. I dont know if i have time to have another pet, at least with a pet i can talk to it eventhough it doesnt understand, at least you know theres someone there listening to ur rants but if the hamster is sleeping, just spray it with water.HAHAH, i always do that.

AIYA. i want a hamster mommy, it is so cute. I doubt my mom approve, she is scared of it. Reminds me of tom and jerry tales. I use to let my hamster run arnd the house and it will always aim for my mom which i have no idea whyy. LOL, i had a great time laughing my ass off looking at my mom priceless expression. HAHAHAH!

i miss you, akachichibaba. And i do talk to animals, im weird. LOL, they somehow understand you in a way. HAHAH! Kak nurul has a parrot, how cool is tat? i wish i had one. =(

Taking care of hamster = $$$$
AIYAAA, it cost quite a lot you know. But i know this shop at marsling area sell cheap hamsters at five bucks each and the cage/food/bedding iss all cheap cheap cheap. HMM, i might get a hamster soon. AND A QN? do cats attack hamster? coz my neighbour have this fat cat who likes to wander arnd and just sleep. I do talk to that cat too, it likes to manje arnd me but im damn scared so i run as fast as lightning when it get near to me.HAHAH =D

idk uh. i will think about it. =.=!

===== not related ====

dydy and ebal, cpt balek la beroks =( imyvm.to the extreme.

fawly, come home quick frm genting. WHY IS EVERYONE HEADING TO KL AND GENTING FOR HOLIDAY UHHH? =(

imissonefham.where the hell are u guys? grr.

finally,imissyou,mr. ___

LOVES.

song for today: cun saja , SLEEQ

2009-03-17T02:54:00.000-07:00

come home guys. LOL! aku rindu korang pantats.

im off to library,the only placee i feel like home.K BEDEK. i find it calming to go to the library,especially cvic library not yishun. Yishun lib looks like a playground and its like made specially for lil kids. aiya. so cramp and its so boring, i tell you. Dont bother going there, go CVIC. =DD

bye pple.

=(

2009-03-17T00:46:00.000-07:00

"All I Have"

Love is life and life is livin'
It's very special
All my love...

Oh...oh...oh...oh...oh...
(Baby, don't go)
(Baby, don't go) Yeah
(Baby, don't go, uh)
(Baby, don't go) Yeah
(Baby, don't go)
(Baby, don't go) Yeah, yeah
(Why you act like that)

It's such a shame, but I'm leavin'
Can't take the way you mistreated me
And it's crazy, but oh, baby
It don't matter, whatever, don't phase me

Uh, uh, uh
I don't believe you wanna leave like this
I don't believe I just had my last real kiss
I do believe we'll laugh and reminisce
Wait a minute, don't bounce, baby, let's talk about this, man

Well, I'm bouncin' and I'm out, son
I gotta leave you alone

'Cause I'm good holdin' down my spot
And I'm good reppin' the girls on the block
And I'm good, I got this thing on lock
So without me you'll be fine, right

All my pride is all I have
(Pride is what you had, baby girl, I'm what you have)
You'll be needin' me, but too bad
(Be easy, don't make decisions when you mad)
The path you chose to run alone
(I know you're independent, you can make it on your own)
Here with me you had a home, oh, yeah
(But time is of the essence, why spend it alone, huh)

The nights I waited up for you (Oh, boy)
Promises you made about comin' through
So much time you wasted
That's why I had to replace you

Uh, uh, uh
It makes a cat nervous, the thought of settlin' down
Especially me, I was creepin' all over town
I thought my tender touch could lock you down
I knew I had you, as cocky as it sounds
The way you used to giggle before i put it down
It's better when you angry, come here, I'll prove it now, come here

Stop playin, you gamin'
I gotta leave you alone

'Cause I'm good holdin' down my spot (Stop actin' like that)
And I'm good reppin' the girls on the block (Now you
know you need to stop)
And I'm good, I got this thing on lock
So without me you'll be fine, right (Here we go)

All my pride is all I have
(Pride is what you had, baby girl, I'm what you have)
You'll be needin' me, but too bad
(Be easy, don't make decisions when you mad)
The path you chose to run alone
(I know you're independent, you can make it on your own)
Here with me you had a home, oh, yeah
(But time is of the essence, why spend it alone, huh)

People make mistakes to make up, to break
To wake up cold and lonely, chill, baby, you know me
You love me, I'm like your homey
Instead of beef you come hold me
I promise I'm not a phony
Don't bounce, baby, console me, come here

Ain't nothin' you can say to me that can change my mind
I gotta let you go now
And nothin' will ever be the same, so just be on your way
Go 'head and do your thing now
And there's no more to explain to me, you no
I know your game and I'm feelin' what you do

So I'm bouncin' and I'm out, son
I gotta leave you alone, yeah, yeah

All my pride is all I have
(Pride is what you had, baby girl, I'm what you have)
You'll be needin' me, but too bad
(Be easy, don't make decisions when you mad)
The path you chose to run alone
(I know you're independent, you can make it on your own)
Here with me you had a home, oh, yeah
(But time is of the essence, why spend it alone, huh)

All my pride is all I have
(Pride is what you had, baby girl, I'm what you have)
You'll be needin' me, but too bad
(Be easy, don't make decisions when you mad)
The path you chose to run alone
(I know you're independent, you can make it on your
own)
Here with me you had a home, oh, yeah
(But time is of the essence, why spend it alone, huh)

I promise you
You know what I'm sayin'

not related..

im bored. supabored staying at home. Most of my homies are busy, sadcase i know.
dydy and ebal = somewhere
fawly = work
anna and naz = sentosa outing(its gonna rain siol)
eerah n hetty = gg eunos as hetty wants to rebond her hair
dinah = movie-ing wit her sch peeps
sasha = sch i thinkk
zimah = bali.
nanep = langkawi.

damn. i miss all of them. sedehhs to the sedehss. i guess i will be roaming arnd cwp alone to get away from home. idk. aiya! =(

imissallofya'll. meet soonnnn.

kak lisa,tc of urself.ilyvm and imyvm.

im nt gg dancework this sat coz im working. so lucks to every grp tat is in finals especially flair nation and fantastic boys i think. loves!

and imy mr. _______

i gotta bounce. peacee

HEEE. =D

2009-03-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

i shall use initials and etc. u wont understand but i just feel like posting abt it cause it make me smileee lah hellewelllehelll okayss. LOVES =) im smiling, and yes i do like you. who doesnt? but i dont expect anything from u okay.

H = guy i like.
N = fren.
C = fren

its very longgggg, our msges and etc but i only like one msg of all of those. lol.

my msg

me and MR.H msging.

to H! =D

Ur gigi uh. Lol! C yg suddenly ask me during break wimme and N. i tros tercekik minom air caramel frappe -.-! HAHA! U takot of wad? Gossip? U malu eh abt me liking you and etc and summore u dont like me? So u scared they assume we gt smtg on padahal we are just frens? WOW,OKAY.

his reply.

Ape my gigi? huh? HAHA. Oh during break. Nasib u pandai cover line. NO! NO! Im nt embarassed of anything u. Really.. Its ok with me. I think abt you. Tu jek. If they knw. Thats all. Coz u so concern if they know what...im ok with it. Btol. Org pikir pasal die, dier kate kite. GRR.

u may find it whatever. i find it damn sweet. <3

those who know,just keep it to urself. much loveeee.

and to H i tk jual mahal okay. GRR. -,-!

*imy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM

2009-03-15T10:21:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY ADAMMMMMM, MY DEAREST DOPE FRENNN. FINALLY NINETEEENN,FUHH SO OLD.HAHAH =D

may u be blesssss and happy always. loves!

HAVE A GREAT DAY WITH SHARZ TMRW!! WHEEEEEE =D

AND IMISS DYDY AND EBAL. COME HOME CPT =(

respect

2009-03-13T08:47:00.000-07:00

respect. =)

love them. beat freaks.

=D

2009-03-12T08:39:00.000-07:00

what is hiphop to me? by passerby

well well well, it really hit me hard though.I havent really think about it though.Well to me its a culture basically which consist of nine elements and etc. im into hiphop dance which is very popular to teens nowadays, no surprise. Hip hop dance - energetic movements and its like a a freed0m of movement. i am able to express myself through dance itself. Hiphop consist of bboy/bgirls, rappers,graffiti and etc. idk if tats enuf for u, but i noe hiphop revolve arnd me. Especially dance coz im proud to say that im a dancer, A passion that nvr seems to end. =)

and and i nid to take up some classes at o sch, idk which one to choose. Popping seems awesomeeeee or reggae? aiya. 0.O! comment anyone. or basically hiphop? lol. idk. we shall see lahhhhhh. as wad zimah says, KNOWLEDGE IS POWER. remember tat. =)

NOT RELATED.

Aspire 4937G-874G32Mn only at $1,200 (w/o GST)

Platform	Intel Centrino Core 2 Duo Processor P8700 (2.53GHz, 1066MHz FSB, 3MB L2 Cache)
Memory	4GB DDR3 RAM
Hard Disk	320GB SATA HDD 5400RPM
Optical Drive	8x DVD-Super Multi double-layer drive (DVD+/-RW)
Web Cam	Integrated Acer Crystal Eye high-def webcam
Display	14” HD 1366 x 768 pixel resolution, Acer Cine Crystal TFT LCD
Graphic card	NVIDIA GeForce G105M with up to 2303MB of Turbo Cache (512MB of dedicated DDR2 VRAM)
Bluetooth	Built-in Bluetooth 2.0+ EDR (Enhanced Data Rate)
Weight	2.32Kg with 6-cell battery and optical drive
Card Reader	6-in-1 card reader (SD, MMC, MMC plus, MS, MS Pro, XD)
Connectivity	Intel 10/100/1000Mbps Gigabit Ethernet Intel WiFi Link 5300 AGN Network Connection
OS	Genuine Windows Vista Enterprise

It may not look awesome on the pic but seriously it is. But sometimes it gets on my nerve,HAHAHA. this touch screen for the volume, irritating to the maximum,AIYA, nvmm lahhh. and this lappy is called GLADYS. i noe most of u will go WTF? so totally spies, ya lahh. i not fresh, i copied coz im addicted to totally spies.lol!

i got to bounce. im missing loads of pple aye.

deena,sasha.zimah.hetty.dylies and one fham.hafriz.bk crew and etc. aiya!

bye.

imy.

2009-03-11T02:57:00.000-07:00

finally. =DDDDD!!
I have a coughsLAPTOPcoughs.im happy to the extremest, nuff said. =D
screw u big bro,sis and lil bro. U shall just look at the laptop but never dream of using it, u can use the desktop at home for all i care. FINALLY,upgrade! =)

The enrolment = tiring. But its not tat bad for those who went on the first day, HEHEH! Typical kiasu singaporens =P and theyy have to wait for so longggg like for five hours before their turn which is equivalent to queuing up for american idol. GHEEZ, *insert evil grin*

AND before i bore u all to death or get u green with jealousy, i seriously think my laptop is the awesomest laptop i ever seen. K BEDEK, i think fujitsu laptop is supadupacool siaa. wheeee but still, my laptop is just so slickkkk. weeeee. jealous kn? yayyyyy.

i cant wait to start polyyy, i noe it will be the best of the best.i hopee its gonna be like high school musical. pantat aku. =P

later ppleee. i want drink caramel frapee -.-

where were we?

2009-03-09T09:45:00.001-07:00

im not expecting anything in return. im just blessed tat i have a fren like you, We shall see in the long run. I expect this crush is going away,sooner the better. Coz i dont want any awkwardness between us,its gonna ruin the whole thing. For now,im concentrating on my dancelife. Something happen and i just realised it,damn stupid i know eventhough dydy told me already. I regretted not listening and giving him my fullest attention. TETEKS btol. =(

i hope we can ace it eventho i feel so down and lost for a while. aiyaaa, wheres my confidence? in the drain right now. im so gonna push myself to ace this thing, we'll show u guys aye. So hahah to ya'll okay.

i gtg. bye world. i promise a longer update soon, with lovee, bee =)

mr. R

2009-03-08T09:26:00.001-07:00

sidetrack.right now. =(

i dont feel right,whatever that is occuring is not right.damn it. tsk tsk tsk! everyone changes, disappointing. im speechless. well, what to do? i will just live my life to the fullest and ignore this small things tat seems to make me moody.

im missing a lot of pple. haiyaa!! meet up wimme lahhh,grrr. *insert sad smile*

Work = hell.
I nearly died. Stomach cramps and some gossips were already killing half of me. CB.
whatever it is, im out from there already. I dont know if i want to come back. lol! we shall see, im gonna miss the mengarots pple there if i dont work there. LETS SEE LAH EH.

Out with mom later, its so gonna be a mundane day, mom will start her lecture from A-Z. wish me luck. i hope my handphone wont die on me so i can listen to songs instead of listening to momsie nagging at me.heheh!

bye world.

thoughtsss

2009-03-05T11:04:00.000-08:00

im walking away from everything that tends to hurt me in any specific way. thats all. I dont see the possibility and somehow it leads to heartache and etc. too bad nothing can be done, everything is done and over with which only hit me back to reality minutes ago. Its such a disappointment,actually i am a disappointment. Dont ask questions, just read or just ignore. Pfft, idk why im feeling so depressed, maybe its the weather which is causing this emotions to engulf within me. I dont think my sentence structure is right,well who cares? Its 3am in the morning and im blogging instead of sleeping on my comfy bed,listening to songs. -.-!

I cant wait to start school cause im schoolsick if theres ever such a term for that kind of sickness. Going out everyday wasting time is not benefiting me in any way which also result to more naggings and lectures from mommy and big brother,the monster. Well oh well, why cant poly start soonerrrrr than 20th april? grrr!

Which clubs or sports should i choose when i enter the AWESOME REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC? frankly speaking, i have no idea. Why does everyone have the same thinking of joining hiphop ig when choosing a cca? This is irritating. If i want to join, there will be audition. And im scared of this type audition,I might just crumble in there and run through the door. I bet this will be the gossip of the school. SHEESH!

I want to try something new instead of sticking to my passion in dancing. I would like to join theatre or something like a musical? I bet many will be thinking,this girl has gone crazy. Can she even do it without making a fool out of herself? coughsICANcoughs.

With determination and enough practice,im sure i can ace it right? It is same as dancing and stuff but one thing im unsure of, its the singing part. I cant sing tat well,HAHAHA! No surprise, im not tat type okayyyyyyyyyy. I express myself through body movements which i seriously think it sounds wrong but whatever.

Mom is screaming and telling me offf. AIYAA?! Three am in the morning,theres screamings in my house. WHEE! Yes mommy,im going to sleep noww. *roll eyes for 55545525 times* k exaggerating. Well,i shall end my post today. Im not thinking really straight.And as i am typing this post, tears keep rolling down my ROSY cheeks. WHY?! due to my contacts.LOL! =DD

nites world. eventhough this is not link in any way, i wish any war tat is occuring right now should cease immediately,let there be peace in this world. I wish they should not put the blame on the muslims and make their own bloody theory which only lead to unhappiness. Sometimes they dont think, a pity. I think they should donate the brains to animals which i bet will make better use of it. such a pity. =(

i wish every muslim in the world is safe and sound.God, pls bless them and protect them from any harm.

amin.

where the hell did i went wrong?

2009-03-02T06:17:00.000-08:00

i just realised there is wentworth miller in it,kental i know. HOT HOT HEAT!
i am loving loving this video. whee! all time fav.song =)

hmmm mmm hmmmm?

2009-02-26T08:48:00.000-08:00

currently watching billu barber,LOL! =D

Dance prac = awesome
At last, we really did something, im sure all our efforts gonna pay off. im sure of it and i cant wait for the next prac. =)) apologies to anna and naz for not inviting ya'll to dance prac coz i thought u all will be busy due to school and for the preparations for o levels. Both of u wont be forgotten coz u two are my crewmates and my bff. dont worry okay and sorry once again.

Tomorrow will be slpg over at aunt house with dearest zimah. If she bueh me one more time, i will personally kill her okay! *insert serious face* LOL, we are going to hindustan marathon using her lappie. She cant wait to watch mujhse dosti karoge,god knows why -.-

this sat, i wont be following the cliques to snow city coz im currently broke,THANKS EH KORANG but i can look forward to another dance prac for upcmg performance with the others. hehehe!

nytes world.

imissyoutotheextreme.

2009-02-23T10:12:00.000-08:00

Fate Phoenix ` says:
Haha ! Craziness is the best pill for happiness okay ? Remember that .
Fate Phoenix ` says:
:)
BEE =D says:
i know.sometimes it acts like a mask.
Fate Phoenix ` says:
Ahh , then it brings me to a point , masks have potential and are able to potray different kinds of things , so we wouldnt know what a mask is like ,
Wouldnt we now ? :)

somehow he always enlighten me in every way. =))

thanks.love u loads.

a diva.im a hustler.

2009-02-22T09:12:00.000-08:00

im not in a jubilant or whatever some kind of mood. I feel a bit lousy now,seriously. Trying my best to take it off my mind but i cant seemed to do it. I fear that i will get hurt again. Im scared, so effin' scared. Some thinks im just carried away but some understands me. I decided not to talk about this issue coz it wont benefit any of us,so why bother? only zimah knows why. aku takot. U and me know whats happening and we regret our actions at the end of the day. remember this line: silence for now. haiz, doing it.

MSN.
Fate Phoenix ` says:
Haha ! Yeap ! Ur right ! Patience is always the key , and it pays . So learn it wisely . :)
BEE =D says:
learning it with a lot of injuries at stake.
BEE =D says:
so yeah.
Fate Phoenix ` says:
Now you're talking , i know u can endure okay ? Have faith . :)

I am loving this guy every minute, a great friend. He has always been there for me, i love him to the max. The only guy tat believes that i can do it. u rawk.

enough of this being emo and silly, i shall update abt my day then.

Today!
Woke up at noon and decided to go to zhenghua cc eventho it start at 11 am in the morn. Did all the chores and still mom wasnt happy with it.She has been complaining tat i treat this house like a hotel. I gave up, i cant be bothered to argue with her, i just kept my silence and walk away. If i treat this house like a hotel, i still bother to do all the CHORES and reached home before midnight. GHEEZ,unfair much? The other siblings are not carrying out their role as a member of this house except for dearest brother who is away from home.I strongly believed that i will get hell from him when he come home next week. *im dead. X.X!*

Whatever it is,just now unexpectedly, it was raining so heavily,very heavily.I felt a bit stupid to be wearing a long skirt on a rainy day.As expected, my skirt is wet and water kept dripping from it. I received loads of stares from everyone, well oh well, i dont mind being stared for a while. unlike coughsANNAcoughs. LOL! =D
I didnt feel like going zhenghua with my skirt being all wet thus i headed to my aunt house behing zhenghua cc. HEHEH! I changed skirt and met raiyan at long last.I miss that mischevious lil guy so muchh and he kept farting at my face.GRRRRRRR =D still,i love him so much.
I didnt stayed that long there coz im scared zimah and the rest might go off and leave me alone at zhenghua cc. O.O! Thus i quickly made my way there. I didnt need to pay five bucks to enter because the event is going to end in ten minutes time. LOL! I managed to catch flair nation perform,it was awesome. Kak lydia was there,she was great. The routine was dope. =)

Congrats to RSC for getting fourth =D bakau rockers for getting third, KMC for getting second and i cant remember who won first. -.- APOLOGIES.

After that,headed to bukit panjang plaza for dinner. Zimah went home due to some stuff and we ended up eating at KFC. Laughters as always, RSC was there, awesome people. Freekzy had their dinner at macdonalds and they went home after that. Me and the rest tagged along with RSC to this dome near BPP. I cant stop laughing to their jokes, they are really fun to hang out with. Thank you double dee, fate and faque for entertaining me. =D

Sasha,shiqy,dinah and hasween was laughing their ass off too, But everything must end. We headed home arnd eight pm. I told FATE about something and his immediate reaction was running to that area. I ran quick as lightning( ok bedek!) and pulled him. Paisey to the max, i was damn terrified that he will let the cat out of the bag.I know he wont,coz i trust him to the effin' max. Double dee cant stop disturbing me about my fats, DAMN. hahah. He kept insisting that i work out a lot at the gym. LOL! Yup,my gym is in my house which is my kitchen. I do eat a lot okay. Fate says i am the same as GARFIELD. of all things in the world, GARFIELD?!

lol, still THAT CAT HAVE DOPE MOVES OKAY. heeeee!

thanks for making my day everyone. ily all to bits and pieces.

-i hope you wont avoid me.

peace.